restless

is this mission worth it?

~dabsq

alter ego1: yes it's worth it, work hard for it...perservere and even die for it!

alter ego 2: no...it's not worth the cost...u lost too much and gain nothing

facing the monster

It's all dark and sticky, the air is so moist...I can feel critters crawling between my legs...

I feel so wet, so alone...I turned back to see if someone was there to back me up. Hoping that someone could've been there and was there assuring me that I have someone with me in this battle...there was none...
Thoughts are racing within my head. Running round and round like cat and mouse, dog and cat, whip and dog,...cheese and butter...

What I am doing, I am wasting my time...I am standing in this sticky situation...facing a monster, towering like an immovable mountain. His big and red eye looking down at me...He looks like he is ready to devour me at any second now...I feel the stench of his breath...I don't wanna smell his breathe, but I am stuck...and I have no choice but to smell the horrible odor.

His razor sharp teeth has these weird critters with dozens of eyes and multiple hands attached to their bodies. I feel so oozy just by looking and thinking about them...and yet I am here all alone facing this giant...facing this thing...facing this...monster.

Why was I so stupid...to get myself into this situation? Why was I so eager to follow the sweet, and alluring scent that this monster seduced me with? Why was I so blind to follow its beautiful back, drooling like a dog, without seeing its disgusting face? Why was I so lazy and stubborn to listen to the people around me warning me about this monster...why? Why did I fell for its beautiful, promising and lying words of happiness...

Just then, a bright light shone from behind me. I tried to look but I was blinded by the light...by the radiant light that gives a positive energy. I was not able to see through the light and yet I can see a man...yes a man...A shining man, but a human being none the less...As I tried to look closer, this man was walking...he was walking towards me...he looks wounded, I see a lot of blood dripping from his sides and his hands. It looks like he is really suffering very harshly, but still he keeps on walking towards me.

I saw the monster, it was now beginning to act violent, like it was very afraid of this man and at the same time angry at him. The monster's eyes are now beginning to glow darker, a darker shade of red...then he ROARED!!! Yes he roared like a lion, an elephant and all the scary things you could think off...Its roar sounds like a thousand of souls. Suffering souls, screaming in despair...screams that makes you feel, sad, scared, hopeless and dead at the same time...

By this time I was trembling...I could not face this monster anymore and yet I am here stuck between this wounded man who seems to weak to fight the monster, and this huge monster...looking at me and at the man like he was going to eat me alive...that was then...

The man rushed towards me and hugged me...and I felt...Love...the monster started screaming and attacking in rage....he started biting the man, tearing his wounds and slashing his back...and yet the man stood firm on his ground...hugging me...protecting me from the monster...He was crying, but at the same time smiling...

I cried...tears dropped from my eyes like rainfall on a sunny day...I felt all the energy drained out of me...and yet strong and love, because this man was hugging me despite all the odds...The monster is now growing weaker every blow...it seems that the blood of the man is reacting violently against the monster...it seems like the blood of this man is like acid, burning the monster....

The monster stopped attacking now and started crying and wimping...It started talking! And told the man every single bad thing that i have done...he was ACCUSING ME!!! Who was this man!?!? what kind of monster is this??? I felt embarrassed and scared at the same time...I felt dirty because all of the monster's words are true...but still this man continues to hug me...he continues to hug me...

By this time the monster stopped...he was defeated, wounded and weak...he now turned his back and started walking towards the dark edges of the path...after 3 minutes his smell was gone...the battlefield was a mess, full of the monster's dirt and the man's blood...

But still this man continues to hug me....he doesn't want to let go of me...

The I asked him...why did you do all of those things for me???


Then he answered...


Because I forgive you...


I love you

~dabsq

PS1- Original story yan ahhahaha :D inspired lng magsulat! God Bless

So hardd :)

Yea the blog title says it all, it is hard...

It's hard...
to stand up for something you believe in when it's something that you don't want to believe in...
to be a Kuya to all, if you can't even a kuya to yourself
not to complain on the hardships of life
to pray every single day as if nothing's wrong
to stay strong in the face of a giant monster of challenges
to stand up and to face your fears
to show that you are a strong leader
to be a holy person
to be faithful to our God
to be me
to stay committed for 7 years
to walk your talk
be like Jesus
to die for yourself...

There are a lot of things that we could complain and use as an excuse to God on the hardships of our lives...but one thing's for sure...

it was surely really hard for him, a perfect God who did nothing wrong but love his creation, to die on a cross, be spitted upon, and yet still had the courage and love to hug the cross...as if it was not a curse but rather a blessing...he considers us as his blessings and those hardships didn't matter...no they didn't


but none the less it was hard...

Jesus didn't say that it would be easy...

but he promised us that it'll be worth it :)

he didn't give up...he didn't

~dabsq

ps1...in short mhirap ma in-love ng hindi oras :))
ps2...and no don't ask me who she is...:D

Bakit ba kasi?

Alam mo nakakainis ka na...

eh kasi naman lagi mo nlng tinatamaan ang puso q


~dabsq

Phiona

Hahaha just a sharing...

Now I kinda feel a part of how parents feel when they need to spank their children out of discipline
I feel the pain of hitting your children, your responsibility, so that they could grow up as great adults someday.
I feel the pain of hearing your children cry and you can't do anything about it to teach them a lesson.
I feel the pain of clearing up the mess of your children who made mistakes.
I feel the pain of realizing that you've hitted them for the wrong reason
I feel the pain of them being too scared of you...

I realized all of this while training my new Puppy, Phiona...:) I love this puppy so much that I am hurt when I need to spank her.
I am hurt when I need to scold her
I am hurt when I need to punish her...

But what's amazing about it is this...

She learns quickly...and I am doing all of this things out of love..

Who says Love is just a bed of daises...

Its a bed of roses my dear...flowers, thorns and all :)
~dabsq

Being ready

We had worship at Oblation Grounds just hours before I decided to type in this blog again :)

The worship was amazing, and is really amazing. It started out with 0 plans, 0 directions and 0 hope. But God has other plans, he made us realize the simple things in life, the common things in life that we face day to day. The normies that we encounter in each day of our lives, the things we take for granted...He made us realize that all of this things were allowed by him to happen...because we are ready...

Read my lips...God will not allow something to happen to us, whether good or bad, a blessing or a challenge, if we're not ready to handle it. That's how much he knows us. There are times that he already knows and is saying that we are indeed ready, but we ourselves are denying it, and even questioning his will for us :)

The worship was amazing, it just made all of us realize, how Great our God is...How big he is, and how he made every thing that surrounds us just to make us happy. That's how great he is, that's how much he has loved us...

Personally, the worship made me realize


God never gave up on me, that's why I must not give up on him or his people :)


~dabsq

PS1...Grabeee crusshhh q tlaga siii janinneee ang ganda ng boses nia!!! WOHOOO TO THE MAX!!!
PS2...si riane, aun ang kulit at ang gulo...pero masaya kasama :)) ahahha msarap kaaway