Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Saturday, 8 January 2011

50 Things about me as told by my dzidzi

DEAR READERS HERE IS A BLOG EXCERPT GALING SA AKING DZIDZI/God's Gift/Girlfriend si Rianne xD
Paki basa, put your comments below or dun sa status sa FB hahahaha :P


AGAIN I REPEAT! SI RIANNE/YHANE po ang nagsulat nito hindi ako hahahha xD

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He had always asked me.
I never answered.
What is it that makes him crazy?
About that silly things about him that I love and hate.
He often nags. And I can’t damn answer.
Maybe I did. But I guess I never did.
Maybe I just never satisfied his question.
so let me put a period to all the nagging.
So who is he? To me.
I’ll describe.

Monday, 25 October 2010

Text Messages, Evil Black Trash Bags and Mustard Seeds

TEXT MESSAGES
So I woke up at around 4:30 AM this morning...I know right? Well its because I kinda slept early because I was EXHAUSTED from traveling around Baguio yesterday. I dozed off at 11 PM without me even noticing...that's how tired I was. Anyways, when I woke up this morning I received a very sweet and special text message from my dzidzi...Awww, I Love you too dzi ^^, honestly it made me smile and forget about being tired at the moment. After reading it a couple of times more, I saw it fit that I should throw out the trash now and not later because I might again procrastinate and end up putting it aside till next week. And I've already got 4 FULL BLACK TRASH BAGS *not counting that ones I wore during my Linis Bahay photoshoot chronicles* and one of the trashbags is like...between 10 to 15 kilograms in weight...And since I am alone in the house I have to go back and forth in throwing the trash. Walking at least a kilometer to the nearest trash depository *in layman's term...dump*

EVIL BLACK TRASH BAGS
I waited a couple more of minutes till the sun rose up, I don't want to be caught walking in the dark...I might see a ghost or something...NAHHH just kidding, I am not that afraid of something like that silly...I am just afraid that I might see flying dogs...worst nightmare...seriously the worst...Anyways I am being too random...so Yea I got up, cleaned what my dog thought was fun which was DESTROYING 2 trashbags outside so yeah I cleaned them up...and Started to carry the first two to the dump. After I disposed of the two evil trash bags I karate chopped them and then started to walk back dramatically with a background music of some 90s disco dance revolution machine. Upon reaching my house I carried in one hand the 13 kg trashbag...and the 200-300 grams trash bag on the other...I made a couple of stuffs because I was dead tired, thirsty and at the same time the trash bag was FREAKIN HEAVY! Trust me...it was HEAVY!

After with all the screaming, pulling and shouting *YOU'LL NEVER TAKE ME ALIVE* and all the drama with the 13 kg trash bag...I finally DUMPED it! AHA! At last...take that evil black trash bags! So I started walking back...no scratch that...I started dancing back...imagining that I won a battle or something...You might dismiss me as a crazy dude sometime later on, but if you really know me...then you'll just see this as one of my glorious moments...

When I got home, I washed my hands and decided that I should pray, its been a long time since I had my prayer time...And that is the purpose of this blog...to share the gospel and my reflection upon it.


Ohhh! Di Ba? Galing ko noh, kala ninyo randomness lang xD

MUSTARD SEEDS
The story that I've just shared to you is real, I didn't imagine it to make a point. I really received a sweet and special text message from my special someone that I really love, I really did throw 4 evil black trash bags that I really hate...and I really did reflect and pondered upon my prayer time...So knowing me there must be a lesson to all the things I wrote above...Right? Well yeah, all of them are related to this verse

Luke 13:18-21
He said therefore, "What is the kingdom of God like? And to what shall I compare it? It is like a grain of mustard seed which a man took and sowed in his garden; and it grew and became a tree, and the birds of the air made nests in its branches." And again he said, "To what shall I compare the kingdom of God? It is like leaven which a woman took and hid in three measures of flour, till it was all leavened."


I copy-pasted this verse from my facebook status, see I AM LAZY!...Ok enough with the randomness, kinda trying to focus with the serious portion of this blog...the realizations, reflection and lessons part...

I focused more on the mustard seed because I kinda don't know how to relate any of these with bread and yeast. The mustard seed is small, it's very small indeed but its Tree is very large. Jesus was relating to us that God's kingdom starts out of mustard seed. Does this mean literally? Well Yes and No.

Yes and No because God's kingdom is both in our hearts and in heaven. God's Kingdom in our heart indeed starts out with a simple desire, with that small spark of genuine faith, no matter how small or insignificant that spark is...as long as it is genuine, and it came from God...it has the potential to become Big and change the world. No because God's kingdom in heaven is already majestic and glorious, it didn't start out as a mustard seed.

God's Kingdom in our Hearts is like a mustard seed, it will and must start with true desire, no matter small or insignificant that desire or faith is. If planted, nurtured and protected, it would grow to something big. My service in Youth For Christ, all of the Kuya Dabs that you know now, was not the Kuya Dabs 6 years before when he started serving in the community. My intentions and goals before were not that big or as you can say genuine. I just had the simple desire to lead. I developed that simple desire that I want to help and to talk in front. It all started with a simple desire, 6 years down the road that desire transformed into something greater. I transformed into a calling to a mission that I am doing and living right now. It was not a one time event. We need to be patient, especially nurturing visions and desires. We must be patient with people around us, do not complain if it seems that nothing is happening or that you're not seeing change right away. Remember that it is a start. As long as you've planted a mustard seed of God's Love in their hearts...it would grow...just protect and nurture that seed.

The text message, how was it related into growing mustard seeds? You see Simple words as I Love you, you are important to me...and I will still Love you tomorrow are indeed life changing. For me I treasure these words deeply and it brings me great joy if someone special to me like her texts to me these words. Why? It's because all relationship starts with a small liking for each other. Like a mustard seed, a relationship whether with a GG, or a friend doesn't start with a simple YES, or I Love you...It is not a one time event...it's a continuous process that enables that relationship to grow. You cannot expect it to be that magnificent and marvelous just because you said Yes...you must work hard on it...plant it, nurture it and protect it. The words that I received are the fruits of the small mustard seed that was planted a long time ago...the small mustard seed of friendship that grew into the Tree of True Love.

How about the trash bags...How is it related to my mustard seed story? Well looking both ways, if a mustard seed is planted and nurtured it would grow to something big...something wonderful. The same way, if a mustard seed is just left alone to dry, it will wither and die *hey that rhymes* Put a couple of mustard seeds and just leave them with water without planting nor nurturing them they'll become spoiled. Like trash. Throw them out in the garbage and let them accumulate they'll grow alright, but this time as spoils, full of germs and bacteria and fungi. If we let small seeds of hate, anger, confusion and hurt get out of hand, plant them deep in our hearts, nurture them with bad memories, unfound guilt, irrational reasoning and such, then protect them by denying that they exist or even ignore them...they'll grow into something that is the opposite of the tree of Life. They'll grow thorns and continually pierce your heart because you have nurtured them and protected them. You let them to be accumulated and fill your whole body...and this is not a wise idea. Throw them out...that' my advice to you, take them to the dump. How? Go to confession, pray at church, and at the same time let go of these things that are continually hurting you...Move on, there's a lot of blessings ahead of you and with you right now...Stop wasting time collecting and protecting garbage thinking you can get rid of them later on, because they'll probably pile into enormous amounts and it would take you years before you can dispose of them all.

CONCLUSION
So there you have it folks, I shared about Text Messages, Evil Black Trash Bags and Mustard Seeds, I hope you liked my blog entry for today. For the UP students reading my blog, please do not comment about grammatical and spelling corrections in my comment box. Just email me or pm me privately, dabsq@yahoo.com. Also I tend to over exaggerate on the punctuation marks so I am begging for your forgiveness hahahaha.

It's 7:30 AM on my Clock and I leave you a picture of this evil black trash bag

God Bless :)



~dabsq

Sunday, 17 October 2010

Alam niyo ba

Did you know that I LOVE Rianne :)

Yeap I Love her as my dzidzi...and I promise to protect, pastor and provide for her...
Ung provide...when the right time comes...pero for now protect and pastor

I choose to be a real man of God...treating her the way she is to be treated...a real princess, and a precious daughter in God's eyes...and a magnificent person in mine...:)

I miss you :D

I Love you ^^
And I'll always be praying for you!

I promise to protect you...and to be the best person that God made me....for you :)


~dabsq

PS...
kukuwento ko realizations ko because of her, in my other entries...watch out for the Dzidzi chronicles xD

ps2...
Ang cutee nung yellow flowers sa likod hahahaha xD

Thursday, 13 May 2010

popcorn

the story
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it was a fun day, varying from electric shocks in our bodies, walking back in forth in the stores, trying out all the electronic gadgets in Plug-ins, waiting for charles and kevin to show up, buying popepyes and mitch wanting a biscuit, AJ overemphasizing on the gravy and being hyper in playing the games...it was amazing

we went to marina mall, originally planning to watch a movie at 12:30, then it was moved to 2, then 6 until we got to watch at 8:45. Why you ask? because we were waiting for the people who were *ehem* late...from the PLAN!!! :D

So I wen to josh's house about 11:00 PM, stayed there until 1:30 PM, we went to Marina Mall, met up with KC and AJ... me and josh talking about random stuff, AJ being the group hyper person, yeah its pretty much all about AJ being hyper and super active....stayed in Marina Mall until 4:45 PM, went to the beach and there met with Charles, Kevin, and Alain , had a swim, mitch splattered SLIMYYYY mud all over his body and face, and claims that after the beach his skin was softer, AJ swimming all around, me and mitch trying to pull AJ's shorts down, AJ ADMIRING THE BEAUTY of the girls, me making sand art. Like I planned to make a shark that ends up as a Tilapia, and an anaconda that ends up looking like a worm. We swam all around relaxing and making our past dreams a reality, of being carefree and just lying on the shore, experiencing happiness...

We stayed there and bid KC goodbye, after AJ's antics of borrowing the Towel, went to Marina Mall, bought tickets for Iron Man 2, and shared popcorns...

Iron Man 2 finished 11 PM, which was pretty late, but if we were given a choice we would still be hanging out with each other's home...there was no boisterous laughter, or senseless conversations all the time...nope there was just bonding and friendship. I went home, satisfied and happy...knowing I had these friends and I got the chance to know them.

the lesson
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Recently people especially in our batch are sad, about graduation, leaving, and everything...I am not here to criticize about them being sad, but that's the normal reaction...sadness because people are leaving and etc, and it kinda bothers me because...God gave us friends to be Happy that we met them and not to be sad when we leave them. Of course its normal to be sad for a week or two, but remember we would still see each other, what matters the most is that you learn to accept they are leaving, and you are being separated, in order to be happy. I also realized that happiness and sadness is not merely an emotion, but a state of being. Being happy at the same time missing your friends is allowable, but being sad and happy is irreconcileable. Happiness is the most when you realize that the people you met changed your life.

I also realized, there is no such thing as SUPERIOR group of friends, or COOL group of friends. You cannot treat your group of Friends as the lasting friendship as you don't know what would happen in the future. Stop making promises to be "FOREVER" if you don't know if there is even Ever....Its nice to dream, its ok to visualize, but do not restrict yourself into new friendships and open possibilities, do not compare your friends NOW and your friends BEFORE, because you'll never be happy. Learn to Let go!

Lastly, the greatest lesson I learned during the day...

"You'll never realize that those moments are Treasured Moments until they are over"

Many would not agree as they would claim that they know a moment is to be treasured if they are feeling it currently. No, I beg to disagree...you'll never be able to realize that THAT moment is to be treasured until it is over, because you'll begin missing it, you'll begin wanting it again, and you'll realize the lessons behind it. It is because we were sooo caught up with the moment that we forget that its probably gonna be the last...May 12, 2010 is the only May 12, 2010 in our whole of lifetime, nothing can ever bring that day, that moment forever.

That's why I always say...Good or Bad

TREASURE EVERY MOMENTS....with your friends, family, loved-one, siblings, GOD :)

friendship is not about hanging out together, laughing together, having the same interests and etc...no..


Friendship is about having genuine Love for one another

~dabsq

Monday, 19 April 2010

failure

excerpt from www.bosanchez.ph
 
Success Doesn’t Teach You Much;
Only Failure Teaches You
Your Most Powerful Lessons Of Victory
       This is the irony of life.
       Success doesn’t teach you much.
       It’s only Failure that teaches you your most important Lessons of Victory.
       When you’re successful, you don’t know why you’re successful. You just assume that perhaps it’s this or that thing.
       When you’re successful, you’re complacent.
       When you’re successful, you’re not teachable.
       When you’re successful, you’re proud.
       When you’re successful, you’re hard-headed.
       But when you fail, you fall on your face.
You hit the ground. 
Bang!
       You’re stunned. 
       You’ve dazed.
       You’ve got blood on your lips.
       You’ve got massive pain on your knee.
Suddenly, you’re attentive.
       Suddenly, you’re quiet.
       Suddenly, you ask hard questions. 
“Why did I fail?”
“What can I do so I won’t fail again?”
As you answer these questions, you learn lessons of victory.
And when you apply those lessons of victory, that’s when you succeed.

~dabsq

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

moments

Moments  are more memorable and cherish-able if laughter, happiness, friendship, and love are found in them :)
~dabsq

Monday, 22 March 2010

a quote

"It seems that I worth nothing to her, so I guess that means that she amounts and worth nothing to me."

This words, this quote that I have studied and have claimed to my own, as it represents my current situation.  It may sound harsh but it's the truth. Finding it all out, connecting all the dots, and trying to remember the memories that we never had the chance to treasure, makes me to wish that I haven't met you ever in my life. It makes me wish to just to forget who you really are, but we can;t really do that right? The only way I could forget you is through amnesia, and well death (mine). It makes me wanna scream why I took the risk of knowing you, why I took the risk of trusting you, and the risk of putting unto you all my hopes and dreams. I know it's stupid, but as they say you're 99.9% perfect! Everyone loves you, no one stays mad at you, and your emotions and mood are infectious. When you're happy, people tend to laugh and experience joy, when you're sad or emotionless, people begin to notice something is wrong. Oh sure you're perfect alright, but that is the very reason I regret meeting you, its just because your so perfect, so unique and so different. And yet, I have accepted that fact that I am worth nothing before you. I never really changed anything, I just replaced those awkward moments, with awkward smiles.

Oh please, don't blame yourself, as we all know it is not you to blame, but me. It's me for letting my guard down, it's me for well hoping too much, and it's me for not learning from my past lessons and mistakes...

So what am I to do now? Well I would try to forget everything as if it was a fading memory, I would not try anymore well to build a good relationship that wasn't there in the first place. I am worth nothing when I am in front of you, and sorry but I  just can't go on and see myself looking stupid for that. 

You were just a distraction, a petty distraction that was made to divert me from seeing reality, and finishing my goals, you were just someone who was put in the way to confuse, my goals, my dreams, myself. You were put in the way to confuse who I AM. And for that I have decided to let you go, you deserve people better than me. People who could really make you laugh, when you need laughter. People who you can trust, people who you would like or appreciate, and people who would really care for you. I don't know, but for me I tried to be all of those people, for you, even though it wasn't who I am. I tried changing, not compromising my Christianity and morality, but I changed my personality, the way I talk, I dress and everything for you. But I just see that is too late, after all this time, what I have been doing is nothing, I was worth nothing to you when we first met each other, and I would be worth nothing to you when we say our long goodbyes...

And so this is me, saying goodbye, and thank you...Thank you for being there, teaching me again a lesson to think, pray and not expect too much. Thank you for giving me a challenge that I failed, thank you for giving me a painful and scarring yet, beautiful and memorable moments that I hope I could treasure forever...

But to tell you honestly, whenever I look at you now, I try to think of you as...

worthless...even though it is not what my heart tells me, I try to follow my mind this time...



I am a yfc, people see me in activities, talking about true Love and etc. People look at me to ask me stuff about this things, and yet after giving them an advice they tend to do the opposite, they would say that it is too hard to follow. Well brothers and sisters, It is not you guys alone who are struggling, not you alone who had to make hard decisions such as this, and not you alone who has a life. Remember, life is not just about making harsh decisions, its about taking time to make the right one.

Good bye


and Thank You


....for everything :)

dabsq
blogger


ps....don't judge or guess too quickly on who this girl is, people make that  mistake too often, that they just end up either hurting themselves, or plainly looking stupid
ps2...and no I am not on emo mowd, I just found a blog worthy to be written and shared to the world

Wednesday, 17 March 2010

a choice

before I sleep my dear imaginary readers, I leave you a message, a story rather :) here we can realize that Love is not just any other emotion or feeling...it is the ultimate choice, made by humanity and man's creator...GOD :)

The Choice...


He placed one scoop of clay upon another until a form lay lifeless on the ground.
All of the Garden’s inhabitants paused to witness the event. Hawks hovered. Giraffes stretched. Trees bowed. Butterflies paused on petals and watched.
“You will love me, nature,” God said. “I made you that way. You will obey me, universe. For you were designed to do so. You will reflect my glory, skies, for that is how you were created. But this one will be like me. This one will be able to choose.”
All were silent as the Creator reached into himself and removed something yet unseen. A seed. “It’s called ‘choice.’ The seed of choice.”
Creation stood in silence and gazed upon the lifeless form.
An angel spoke, “But what if he … ”
“What if he chooses not to love?” the Creator finished. “Come, I will show you.”
Unbound by today, God and the angel walked into the realm of tomorrow.
“There, see the fruit of the seed of choice, both the sweet and the bitter.”
The angel gasped at what he saw. Spontaneous love. Voluntary devotion. Chosen tenderness. Never had he seen anything like these. He felt the love of the Adams. He heard the joy of Eve and her daughters. He saw the food and the burdens shared. He absorbed the kindness and marveled at the warmth.
“Heaven has never seen such beauty, my Lord. Truly, this is your greatest creation.”
“Ah, but you’ve only seen the sweet. Now witness the bitter.”
A stench enveloped the pair. The angel turned in horror and proclaimed, “What is it?”
The Creator spoke only one word: “Selfishness.”
The angel stood speechless as they passed through centuries of repugnance. Never had he seen such filth. Rotten hearts. Ruptured promises. Forgotten loyalties. Children of the creation wandering blindly in lonely labyrinths.
“This is the result of choice?” the angel asked.
“Yes.”
“They will forget you?”
“Yes.”
“They will reject you?”
“Yes.”
“They will never come back?”
“Some will. Most won’t.”
“What will it take to make them listen?”
The Creator walked on in time, further and further into the future, until he stood by a tree. A tree that would be fashioned into a cradle. Even then he could smell the hay that would surround him.
With another step into the future, he paused before another tree. It stood alone, a stubborn ruler of a bald hill. The trunk was thick, and the wood was strong. Soon it would be cut. Soon it would be trimmed. Soon it would be mounted on the stony brow of another hill. And soon he would be hung on it.
He felt the wood rub against a back he did not yet wear.
“Will you go down there?” the angel asked.
“I will.”
“Is there no other way?”
“There is not.”
“Wouldn’t it be easier to not plant the seed? Wouldn’t it be easier to not give the choice?”
“It would,” the Creator spoke slowly. “But to remove the choice is to remove the love.”
He looked around the hill and foresaw a scene. Three figures hung on three crosses. Arms spread. Heads fallen forward. They moaned with the wind.
Men clad in soldiers’ garb sat on the ground near the trio. They played games in the dirt and laughed.
Men clad in religion stood off to one side. They smiled. Arrogant, cocky. They had protected God, they thought, by killing this false one.
Women clad in sorrow huddled at the foot of the hill. Speechless. Faces tear streaked. Eyes downward. One put her arm around another and tried to lead her away. She wouldn’t leave. “I will stay,” she said softly. “I will stay.”
All heaven stood to fight. All nature rose to rescue. All eternity poised to protect. But the Creator gave no command.
“It must be done … ,” he said, and withdrew.
But as he stepped back in time, he heard the cry that he would someday scream: “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” (Mark 15:34) He wrenched at tomorrow’s agony.
The angel spoke again. “It would be less painful … ”
The Creator interrupted softly. “But it wouldn’t be love.”
They stepped into the Garden again. The Maker looked earnestly at the clay creation. A monsoon of love swelled up within him. He had died for the creation before he had made him. God’s form bent over the sculptured face and breathed. Dust stirred on the lips of the new one. The chest rose, cracking the red mud. The cheeks fleshened. A finger moved. And an eye opened.
But more incredible than the moving of the flesh was the stirring of the spirit. Those who could see the unseen gasped.
Perhaps it was the wind who said it first. Perhaps what the star saw that moment is what has made it blink ever since. Maybe it was left to an angel to whisper it:
“It looks like … it appears so much like … it is him!”
The angel wasn’t speaking of the face, the features, or the body. He was looking inside—at the soul.
“It’s eternal!” gasped another.
Within the man, God had placed a divine seed. A seed of his self. The God of might had created earth’s mightiest. The Creator had created, not a creature, but another creator. And the One who had chosen to love had created one who could love in return.
Now it’s our choice.

EXPERIENCE OUR LIMITLESS GOD!
YFC LIMITLESS
APRIL 29-30, 2010
Abu Dhabi, United Arab Emirates

YOU HAVE A CHOICE.. its up to YOU!

Credits to Kuya Ace Lu! FTPW YFC Middle East!



kDabs Quiambao
YFC Abu Dhabi, UAE
servant



gudnyt :)

Wednesday, 10 March 2010

loved...

i feel loved today...:)

and that love is amazing, since its like sleeping and swimming in mushy marshmallows with ponies and unicorns...


ok...not necessarily that gay...but i do feel loved...Loved by Jesus :)

Why? Because of him i have this wonderful friends, friends on whom he has given me. Friends who never left me behind, classmates that i shared my memories with!

Yeah, we'll be leaving all right, but our memories, our voices, and our legacy would remain in the halls of PNS, and in the hearts of the people we have learned to Love...

i feel loved today:)

and that is what matters :D

kDabs

Sunday, 17 January 2010

rant...teenage rant...:))

I am gonna do a teenage rant here...and no its not about the world or vulgar words or cursing or emo statements...:)

what's more harder than falling in love? Its falling in Love with the same person over and over again :)!!! HUWAAAAA :P Its hard to let go of her in my mind...her ayiiieeess...and if ur reading this stop laughing :))


-dabs