Alam niyo ba

Did you know that I LOVE Rianne :)

Yeap I Love her as my dzidzi...and I promise to protect, pastor and provide for her...
Ung provide...when the right time comes...pero for now protect and pastor

I choose to be a real man of God...treating her the way she is to be treated...a real princess, and a precious daughter in God's eyes...and a magnificent person in mine...:)

I miss you :D

I Love you ^^
And I'll always be praying for you!

I promise to protect you...and to be the best person that God made me....for you :)

~dabsq

PS...
kukuwento ko realizations ko because of her, in my other entries...watch out for the Dzidzi chronicles xD

ps2...
Ang cutee nung yellow flowers sa likod hahahaha xD

So hardd :)

Yea the blog title says it all, it is hard...

It's hard...
to stand up for something you believe in when it's something that you don't want to believe in...
to be a Kuya to all, if you can't even a kuya to yourself
not to complain on the hardships of life
to pray every single day as if nothing's wrong
to stay strong in the face of a giant monster of challenges
to stand up and to face your fears
to show that you are a strong leader
to be a holy person
to be faithful to our God
to be me
to stay committed for 7 years
to walk your talk
be like Jesus
to die for yourself...

There are a lot of things that we could complain and use as an excuse to God on the hardships of our lives...but one thing's for sure...

it was surely really hard for him, a perfect God who did nothing wrong but love his creation, to die on a cross, be spitted upon, and yet still had the courage and love to hug the cross...as if it was not a curse but rather a blessing...he considers us as his blessings and those hardships didn't matter...no they didn't


but none the less it was hard...

Jesus didn't say that it would be easy...

but he promised us that it'll be worth it :)

he didn't give up...he didn't

~dabsq

ps1...in short mhirap ma in-love ng hindi oras :))
ps2...and no don't ask me who she is...:D

Bakit ba kasi?

Alam mo nakakainis ka na...

eh kasi naman lagi mo nlng tinatamaan ang puso q


~dabsq

Being ready

We had worship at Oblation Grounds just hours before I decided to type in this blog again :)

The worship was amazing, and is really amazing. It started out with 0 plans, 0 directions and 0 hope. But God has other plans, he made us realize the simple things in life, the common things in life that we face day to day. The normies that we encounter in each day of our lives, the things we take for granted...He made us realize that all of this things were allowed by him to happen...because we are ready...

Read my lips...God will not allow something to happen to us, whether good or bad, a blessing or a challenge, if we're not ready to handle it. That's how much he knows us. There are times that he already knows and is saying that we are indeed ready, but we ourselves are denying it, and even questioning his will for us :)

The worship was amazing, it just made all of us realize, how Great our God is...How big he is, and how he made every thing that surrounds us just to make us happy. That's how great he is, that's how much he has loved us...

Personally, the worship made me realize


God never gave up on me, that's why I must not give up on him or his people :)


~dabsq

PS1...Grabeee crusshhh q tlaga siii janinneee ang ganda ng boses nia!!! WOHOOO TO THE MAX!!!
PS2...si riane, aun ang kulit at ang gulo...pero masaya kasama :)) ahahha msarap kaaway

a quote

"It seems that I worth nothing to her, so I guess that means that she amounts and worth nothing to me."

This words, this quote that I have studied and have claimed to my own, as it represents my current situation.  It may sound harsh but it's the truth. Finding it all out, connecting all the dots, and trying to remember the memories that we never had the chance to treasure, makes me to wish that I haven't met you ever in my life. It makes me wish to just to forget who you really are, but we can;t really do that right? The only way I could forget you is through amnesia, and well death (mine). It makes me wanna scream why I took the risk of knowing you, why I took the risk of trusting you, and the risk of putting unto you all my hopes and dreams. I know it's stupid, but as they say you're 99.9% perfect! Everyone loves you, no one stays mad at you, and your emotions and mood are infectious. When you're happy, people tend to laugh and experience joy, when you're sad or emotionless, people begin to notice something is wrong. Oh sure you're perfect alright, but that is the very reason I regret meeting you, its just because your so perfect, so unique and so different. And yet, I have accepted that fact that I am worth nothing before you. I never really changed anything, I just replaced those awkward moments, with awkward smiles.

Oh please, don't blame yourself, as we all know it is not you to blame, but me. It's me for letting my guard down, it's me for well hoping too much, and it's me for not learning from my past lessons and mistakes...

So what am I to do now? Well I would try to forget everything as if it was a fading memory, I would not try anymore well to build a good relationship that wasn't there in the first place. I am worth nothing when I am in front of you, and sorry but I  just can't go on and see myself looking stupid for that. 

You were just a distraction, a petty distraction that was made to divert me from seeing reality, and finishing my goals, you were just someone who was put in the way to confuse, my goals, my dreams, myself. You were put in the way to confuse who I AM. And for that I have decided to let you go, you deserve people better than me. People who could really make you laugh, when you need laughter. People who you can trust, people who you would like or appreciate, and people who would really care for you. I don't know, but for me I tried to be all of those people, for you, even though it wasn't who I am. I tried changing, not compromising my Christianity and morality, but I changed my personality, the way I talk, I dress and everything for you. But I just see that is too late, after all this time, what I have been doing is nothing, I was worth nothing to you when we first met each other, and I would be worth nothing to you when we say our long goodbyes...

And so this is me, saying goodbye, and thank you...Thank you for being there, teaching me again a lesson to think, pray and not expect too much. Thank you for giving me a challenge that I failed, thank you for giving me a painful and scarring yet, beautiful and memorable moments that I hope I could treasure forever...

But to tell you honestly, whenever I look at you now, I try to think of you as...

worthless...even though it is not what my heart tells me, I try to follow my mind this time...

I am a yfc, people see me in activities, talking about true Love and etc. People look at me to ask me stuff about this things, and yet after giving them an advice they tend to do the opposite, they would say that it is too hard to follow. Well brothers and sisters, It is not you guys alone who are struggling, not you alone who had to make hard decisions such as this, and not you alone who has a life. Remember, life is not just about making harsh decisions, its about taking time to make the right one.

Good bye

and Thank You

....for everything :)

dabsq

blogger


ps....don't judge or guess too quickly on who this girl is, people make that  mistake too often, that they just end up either hurting themselves, or plainly looking stupid
ps2...and no I am not on emo mowd, I just found a blog worthy to be written and shared to the world

tagline xD

"Nasisiyahan ako sa bawat oras na kausap mo ako, pero nasasaktan ako sa bawat segundong may kasama kang iba"

ohaaa :P :))

You are my greatest strength, and yet my only weakness ;)

~randommnnesss

kDabs
blogger


ps...This blog is dedicated to Girl of the Year =))
ps2...no malisiyass ahh :> for others ;)