a question

i asked my friends earlier this day, a question that for them may seem a weird and random question for them but a serious one for my knowing...

is it ok to fall in love with your cousin? Like marry him/her and stuff?

Charles said, it would be incest, and so did AJ, and all the other guys, Charles even claimed it to be worse than being homosexuals *no offense* and being married as gay. It's one of the worst kinds of stuff on his well point of view, I just asked my mother and she said probably its incest. So I ask myself, why is it consider bad? In the case of 1st cousins.

Like what if you really fell in love with your cousin, and you're not even close before, your family has been living apart for all these years? Why would it be incest? What is incest anyway? Marrying someone within your nuclear family? Isn't that who we all are, related as one family?

They'll say it was ok for the people in the past, my question is? Why isn't it okay now? Are we ruled by a dictating "traditional" society, some liberal minded's may take this far and say why we should be allowed to marry our grand children too, which is a big no no for me...but what about cousins?

why is it forbidden for two cousins to fall in love with each other?

why?



kDabs
servant


ps1...I asked Josh about this matter, he asked me to ask a dead guy, Dr. Jose Rizal...well i guess I won't be getting any answers for a very long time...
ps2...I leave the question to you? Why? If love is all those boundaries crap and etc, why is it that we are dictated by modernity and traditional rulings?

pride

you are so full of yourself aren't you? You just love it when people give you this kind of attention, when they show you that you are someone useful, or when you think that they admire what you do? You really stop seeing who really matters most when everything ends up like hell ryt? well its you, and you like being who you are...

i just leave you a warnining my friend, you are being sucked right into the depths and darkness of total self hate and love, seems confusing isn't it? let me put it this way, you are way over your head, you are trying to prove yourself as someone who matters subconciously but is really just a figment of everybody's imagination.

you are way over your head, you think you've already discovered life for what it is, even though you're honest enough to admit that you are still stupid to accept the facts, you just can't get the full of yourself, you laugh at the face of danger, when danger isn't there, and yet you run when you see darkness prodding around the corner, ohh the courage I see in your eyes, is the same weakness that would make you fall

the courage to do what you think is wrong, and yet do it anyway, not minding the consequence, not thinking what to do. I used to admire you, put hope in you, but now pride is eating you from the inside, mark my words, You would crumble into dust, and i would not be there to scoop you up and build you up again...

i am currently listening to Ronan Keating's When you say nothing at all, i guess that applies to you pretty much right now, we just change the lyrics from You say it best, when YOU SAY THE BEST when you say nothing at all, stop talking and start listening

don't just listen to those voices that seem to mislead you, those voices around you in your life, that defines who you are, rather listen from your own heart, your own understanding, and face your darkness...

mark my words my friend

your greatest strength WOULD BE the cause of your most painful fall


kDabs
blogger

ps...don't try asking who it is, you won't get any answers from me...for now
ps2...do not think that this refers either to a specific person, or a group of people, stop wasting your time

ps3...my friend...see how I see, feel how I feel, think how I think and I don't care if you do

ps4...blog how I blog :)

April 2, 2010
12:29 AM

a quote

"It seems that I worth nothing to her, so I guess that means that she amounts and worth nothing to me."

This words, this quote that I have studied and have claimed to my own, as it represents my current situation.  It may sound harsh but it's the truth. Finding it all out, connecting all the dots, and trying to remember the memories that we never had the chance to treasure, makes me to wish that I haven't met you ever in my life. It makes me wish to just to forget who you really are, but we can;t really do that right? The only way I could forget you is through amnesia, and well death (mine). It makes me wanna scream why I took the risk of knowing you, why I took the risk of trusting you, and the risk of putting unto you all my hopes and dreams. I know it's stupid, but as they say you're 99.9% perfect! Everyone loves you, no one stays mad at you, and your emotions and mood are infectious. When you're happy, people tend to laugh and experience joy, when you're sad or emotionless, people begin to notice something is wrong. Oh sure you're perfect alright, but that is the very reason I regret meeting you, its just because your so perfect, so unique and so different. And yet, I have accepted that fact that I am worth nothing before you. I never really changed anything, I just replaced those awkward moments, with awkward smiles.

Oh please, don't blame yourself, as we all know it is not you to blame, but me. It's me for letting my guard down, it's me for well hoping too much, and it's me for not learning from my past lessons and mistakes...

So what am I to do now? Well I would try to forget everything as if it was a fading memory, I would not try anymore well to build a good relationship that wasn't there in the first place. I am worth nothing when I am in front of you, and sorry but I  just can't go on and see myself looking stupid for that. 

You were just a distraction, a petty distraction that was made to divert me from seeing reality, and finishing my goals, you were just someone who was put in the way to confuse, my goals, my dreams, myself. You were put in the way to confuse who I AM. And for that I have decided to let you go, you deserve people better than me. People who could really make you laugh, when you need laughter. People who you can trust, people who you would like or appreciate, and people who would really care for you. I don't know, but for me I tried to be all of those people, for you, even though it wasn't who I am. I tried changing, not compromising my Christianity and morality, but I changed my personality, the way I talk, I dress and everything for you. But I just see that is too late, after all this time, what I have been doing is nothing, I was worth nothing to you when we first met each other, and I would be worth nothing to you when we say our long goodbyes...

And so this is me, saying goodbye, and thank you...Thank you for being there, teaching me again a lesson to think, pray and not expect too much. Thank you for giving me a challenge that I failed, thank you for giving me a painful and scarring yet, beautiful and memorable moments that I hope I could treasure forever...

But to tell you honestly, whenever I look at you now, I try to think of you as...

worthless...even though it is not what my heart tells me, I try to follow my mind this time...

I am a yfc, people see me in activities, talking about true Love and etc. People look at me to ask me stuff about this things, and yet after giving them an advice they tend to do the opposite, they would say that it is too hard to follow. Well brothers and sisters, It is not you guys alone who are struggling, not you alone who had to make hard decisions such as this, and not you alone who has a life. Remember, life is not just about making harsh decisions, its about taking time to make the right one.

Good bye

and Thank You

....for everything :)

dabsq

blogger


ps....don't judge or guess too quickly on who this girl is, people make that  mistake too often, that they just end up either hurting themselves, or plainly looking stupid
ps2...and no I am not on emo mowd, I just found a blog worthy to be written and shared to the world

3 views...and going down

yeah, my blog has been alive since ever, i've only gotten 3 views, and it just goes to prove one thing...

i suck at blogging
i am a boring person
and yeah probably no interesting happens in my life
well no one cares what i think about

and yeah that's pretty much it!

not being pessimistic, but rather realistic...have to accept the truth, face the fact that i suck at writing stuff that would interest people. have to accept that no one bothers to read this blogs, i have to stop dreaming on becoming a blogger with many readers.

yeah i am emo

sue me...:)

kDabs
blogger