Showing posts with label daily dose. Show all posts
Showing posts with label daily dose. Show all posts

Sunday, 21 November 2010

Breaking promises, renewing old ones...

Yes I've broken my promise of blogging everyday...well I am a human being...just sue me k?

Anyway, I've broken a lot of promises recently...

  • A 7 year promise
  • Blogging everyday
  • Staying Faithful
  • Praying everyday
  • Being well disciplined in my body
  • Throwing the trash
  • Washing my clothes
Our promises range from those who are to impact the lives of many people, and ours the same...to promises that just makes you smell bad when you can't fulfill them...

But see this...I don't regret breaking the promises that I've mentioned above. I did them out of the willingness of my heart...my choice and my decision. This time no one told me what to do, no one dared to question me and criticize breaking those promises. And I don't regret any of them...

What I do regret is not being able to fulfill my promise of excelling in my studies and becoming more humble and committed to the community I know and Love. I know that people trust me, i've touched a lot of people's lives already...And my wrong decisions and choices would for certain my affect their way of seeing the world.

And so I renew a promise...the promise to once again share every experience that creates an impact in my life. This blog would be like my diary, a public diary of my reflections, realizations, stories of laughter and joy...and novels of sadness and despair. 

I would strive for holiness...I would strive for excellence...I would strive for humility...

It's who I really am...and who I want to be

The words I wanna hear someday

Kuya Dabs :)
The person who brought me to Christ
My brother, my kuya, my leader
A true Friend



~dabsq

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

3rd Day

Its been 3 days since internet and electricity said bye bye to our home....Yeap and I am missing them so much, but not as much as I miss my family, my dzidzi, and my friends...

Anyways yeap its my 2nd day of hogging the computer here at global pinoy center hahahaha xD

Gotta keep my promise y'all xD

~dabsq

Saturday, 17 July 2010

Breaking Promises

I know my imaginary readers, my last update was July 1, 2010 and I have literally been too lazy to update this blog...and yes I broke a promise and for that I am sorry! sorryy!!! xD

Its raining hard now, I've got many things to do

Academics
Maglaba
Fix the whole House :))

soooo ayan na :)) I'll update this after all of those blah blahs! God Bless
~dabsq


ps1...can someone please define HOTness?

Saturday, 26 June 2010

every chance I get

its a weird thing...for me to study that hard...cause I am not that kind of study person...:D

but people told me it has to change, I am now a UPan, people have high expectations for me getting inside UP, heck I myself am surprised that I passed the UPCAT, it was like meatballs falling from the sky...

people, teachers, friends talk about different styles of studying...but I just can't seem to be happy reading, highlighting things, taking notes...I hate these boring stuff...so I devised a new way to study :D

and it involves with me being in front of the computer typing :) somehow typing soothes me, and makes me feel that I am making sense into this studying stuff :)

hoping to study every chance that I get one :D

~dabsq

Tuesday, 8 June 2010

The Freshie

Walking down the crowded halls, surrounded by total strangers and unfamiliar faces. Being all alone without your close friends on this big university. People of different shapes and sizes looking at you, ignoring you...

Not knowing where to go, and who to talk to. Seeing hyper active emcees in the Orientation and having your first impressions. Confused on what room is S-AVR and CSS 204... Awkward moments with your serious first time professors. Lots of people around you grouped like the herds of animals in the field makes you think more about home...More about highschool...more about your friends...

College is a time to be independent, to be more socialized, more alert, and more open to new ideas and people...In short

College is the time to discover who you are and what you can do...

this is who I am...a Freshie of college :)

~dabsq
UPB

Sunday, 6 June 2010

we found...

we found a dead squished rat under the refrigerator...


it was nasty...

~dabsq

Saturday, 15 May 2010

ORDINATIO SACERDOTALIS: A Catholic Teen's Point of View on Women's Ordination

So yeah I am posting something here in Latin? And I know its pretty confusssingg to most of my readers, as my readers are not that interested in these kind of stuff. Just you to know that besides being a CFC YFC Member, Multimedia Artist, and Crazy Person. I am also a practicing in training Catholic Apologists. Yes, my ladies and gentlemen I want to be a teen Catholic Apologist. My stand on Roman Catholicism is NEVER LIBERAL, somewhat Conservative, I accept and recognize the Vatican Council II and all the other councils before it, 100% Traditionalist...Charismatic Practicing Catholic...In short...I am a Roman Catholic Christian, and i stand by the issues and fully agree 100% on the decision of 1st the Roman Catholic Church (a.k.a. Vatican) on moral and doctrinal issues, 2nd by the POPE, the visible sheperd of the Church, and 3rd by the Congregation of the Doctrines of Faith, a commission based on scriptures, tradition and magesterium and not by "CONCIENCE" as claimed by Liberal CatholYcs.

So yeah, I was kinda ranting on the past paragraph, so to get on to my 2nd apologetic write up. The Ordinatio Sacerdotalis, and my point of view on it. So welcome to my 2nd apologetic write up on the subject and God Bless!

Ordinatio Sacerdotalis: A Catholic Teens Point of View.
Dedicated to Mr. Larry D, the person who inspired me to defend the church in face of fake errors for the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ and the defense of his Church... And I vow to join him, with many of the Catholic Apologists, together with our Pope in defending the Catholic Faith from the WOLVES from without and WITHIN. May God continue to bless you...
his website may be found here http://www.actsoftheapostasy.blogspot.com/

I really liked his blog...it's awesome and redefined and again refueled my burning desire for apologetics.
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Guess what's wrong with this picture?

Yeahh!!! ok ok, besides the Multi Colored Robes, the overly designed Priestly Garments and the person that I don't know if is a guy or a lady (person with green and yellow priestly robe that looks like fruit). Yeahh!!!You're right! I spy a woman raising her hands, and ohh what's this? being congratulated on being what? WHAT ORDAINED as a PRIEST?! Yea, a priest, and that's not the surprising part. I shouldn't have cared if she was Episcopalian, Anglican or any of those stuff. No, she claims to be catholic. Oh my gosh...a Catholic Woman Priest!?!? Since when! let's get ordained already!

Ever since I've started reading Mr. Larry D's blog I 've been pretty shocked with the situation of Catholic Churches abroad, because in the Philippines I rarely see this stupid confused women ordained as priests. So here goes the question why does the Church "FORBID" the ordination of women priests? Doesn't it VIOLATE the INCLUSIVENESS??? Jesus wanted for his Church? Isn't there a verse in the New Testament talking about the Priesthood of Believers including women? Ahhh soo many questions soo limited blog space and time. So let me first answer the question...Why does the Church Forbid the Ordination of Women Priests? Here I present to you Pope John Paul II the Great on the matter. And i really liked his STRONG statement and decision on this matter. It's black and white, no loopholes and straight to the point. Kinda like St. Peter when he Infallibly proclaimed Jesus to be the Messiah on Matthew 16:18.

Ordinatio Sacerdotalis
Wherefore, in order that all doubt may be removed regarding a matter of great importance, a matter which pertains to the Church's divine constitution itself, in virtue of my ministry of confirming the brethren (cf. Lk 22:32) I declare that the Church has no authority whatsoever to confer priestly ordination on women and that this judgment is to be definitively held by all the Church's faithful.

Woww, what a direct to the point statement. The Holy Pontiff himself using his authority as the Bishop of Rome, declared that the Church has no AUTHORITY whatsoever to confer priestly ordination on Women, and that this JUDGEMENT is to be definitively HELD by ALL the Church's FAITFUL.

Well there you go, all the Church's FAITHFUL he says. Praise God! If only these were enough with our hardheaded confused liberal bretheren. In short the Ordinatio Sacerdotalis is a Papal Apostolic Letter on all the Bishops of the Roman Catholic Church to clarify the Church's stand on ordination. Thus people who does not hold this document as final and rather choose to disobey it...are FAITHLESS, they are not upholding to the simple LOGIC presented by the Pope on his decision. But as Christ showed Patience with sinners, *NOT TOLERANCE* I'll be here to present by point of view and defend the Pope's decision on this matter.

Women priests, organizations and such claiming for equality always seems to confuse and misinterpret the role of men and women in the Church. They claim that the restriction on women ordination is an attack on their equality status blah blah blah. Let me make a statement on this statement that I have considered as truth for the last 17 years of my teen life...as I am only 17 :P

MEN AND WOMEN ARE EQUAL BUT NOT THE SAME
They are equal in their word and dignity
But not the same in their God given Roles and Mandate

God has given man and women different roles as per their calling as different genders. Women are called to Motherhood while Men are called to Fatherhood. Men are called to Provide as Women are called to Support her husband. Call me sexist as many feminist and equality people blah blah people now a days claim. But this is what I stand for. Because this is what God has instituted. Want proof?

To solve this "equality" claim let us go back to the time when God created Adam and Eve. Then Eve sinned because of her desire for POWER, and Adam is not off the hook because he failed to defend Eve from the deceptions of the serpent.

EQUAL BUT NOT THE SAME
1) Woman is to be under Man

Genesis 3:16
To the woman he said, "I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing; with pain you will give birth to children. Your desire will be for your husband, and he will rule over you."
Ooohhh NOOOO?!?! Does this mean God is SEXIST?!!? No, he is just passing judgement on Eve as to her sin, of wanting to be in command (a.k.a. GOD) by making her be subject under the obedience of her husband. Yes folks, God has instituted this kind of order in the world. Even before they had Children. There should be only ONE HEAD because 2 Heads would create a MONSTER, thus God has given Adam the Role to LEAD Eve, and at the same time given him the role as the PASTOR, PROVIDER and PROTECTOR of his Wife. This does not mean Eve is not equal in adam, no, rather Eve completes Adam's imperfections and supports his being the protector. As adam cannot bear children, take care of the home, emotionally senstive, and etc etc. In other words, Adam leads his Family, while Eve supports Adam. Their roles here are presnted as Different, they are equal, they both have rights to live, to worship, to be respected, and etc etc. But as the President of a country and a School Janitor, they are equal in their rights, but have different roles to act upon society. In this case...God instituted Man to be Head and Woman to follow.

2) Woman was created for MAN
Yeap folks, that's right, and I am not merely stating a factless emotional opinion here, but rather what I understand as stated on the Holy Bible. As stated in Genesis 2:18-23
emphasis mine
The LORD God said, "It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper suitable for him."

Now the LORD God had formed out of the ground all the beasts of the field and all the birds of the air. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them; and whatever the man called each living creature, that was its name. So the man gave names to all the livestock, the birds of the air and all the beasts of the field. But for Adam no suitable helper was found. So the LORD God caused the man to fall into a deep sleep; and while he was sleeping, he took one of the man's ribs and closed up the place with flesh. Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib he had taken out of the man, and he brought her to the man. The man said, This is now bone of my bones and flesh of my flesh; she shall be called 'woman, for she was taken out of man.


Adam realized the importance of Eve, her role to play in creation. He considered her a Bone of his Bone, a Flesh of his Own Flesh. But as you see in my emphasis, God saw that man was lonely and Man needed a companion. So God created Woman. Woman is created for Man! Woman was created to be a companion of Man. To be the helper of Man in governing Creation. Man is not made for woman, neither they were made at the same time. Man was made first, to show example that he is instituting a lasting order of things, that he created Man for the purpose to Govern his creation as the Leader, and created Woman for Man to have a HELPER in Governing his creation. Therefore Woman was created to Follow the directions given by God through Man.

3) Wives Submit to your Husbands
As in all the congregations of the saints, women should remain silent in the churches. They are not allowed to speak, but must be in submission, as the Law says. If they want to inquire about something, they should ask their own husbands at home; for it is disgraceful for a woman to speak in the church.

Ooohh, here goes the liberals claiming now that the person who said this is SEXIST and too traditional and not able to adjust to the times and blah blah blah. Just to let you know before you start pointing your fake styrofoam staffs. The person who wrote this is the GREAT ST. PAUL! Yes LADIES and GENTLEMEN! St. Paul. 1 Corinthians 14:33-35

St. Paul was aware of God's order on Adam and Eve. In where God has instituted Adam as the head of the family. But this time, that God has institued a Universal Family (Catholic Family) It should be clarified that MEN are still called upon by God as the leaders of his Family. Of the Church. Saint Paul even said that it is DISGRACEFUL for a woman to speak in Church, what does this mean? It doesn't mean women's voices are not be heard. But they are not allowed to teach and gave homilies and those stuff that are only reserved for Priests. St. Paul is reemphasizing a thousand year old God given order/mandate on this matter that Men are called to Lead, and woman are called to support and follow man. At the same time Man must not abuse the equality and dignity of the women following them. Do I hear a big AMEN?


CHRIST'S PERSONAL CHOICE
Now that we have established that Men and Women are Equal but not the same, and that Men are called to Lead and Women are to Follow, and God has instituted it this way. Let us proceed to Christ choosing his disciples. Now mind you, Christ let all follow him, men and women alike. He allowed this as he calls for everyone to be his disciple. However he only chose 12 apostles, 12 primary disciples that he knows who would carry on his mission as the foundations of the church. And notice here that he has chosen only MEN, not just because this is the current "TREND" of the "TIMES" or that was the "NORM" back then, but because Jesus was FULLY aware of the Priestly line of the Jewish Tradition, the Levites in where they are set apart from the people. Although God has called everyone to be Priests, this is meant to be the evangelizers, everyone is called to take part on the mission of proclaiming the Gospel of Christ, but as he said only a few are called to be the Presbyters, the PASTORS of the people, the leaders, the PROTECTORS of Christ's gospel the PROVIDERS of God's Body and Blood the Eucharist. Do I hear something...something familiar...BOOM! The role of MEN in the Family. The role of MEN in society to lead. And Christ knows this perfectly he said this and practiced it. So you FAKE CONFUSED women priests, out there, stop saying it's what Christ could've wanted...because you haven't seen him living, breathing, eating, and talking to you. He instituted a Church to protect us from this errors. It was his Choice as God for this to happen, and how to conduct it this way.


THE ROLE OF THE CHURCH AS THE BRIDE, AND PRIESTS AS THE GROOM
We've always defined the Church as a HER "NO POLITICAL CORRECTNESS HERE" because she has CHILDREN, and because Mother Mary is the Model of the Church. The Church is the Bride of Christ who is the Groom. Wanna know why priests are celibate (more articles about this later) it's because they are in persona Christi. Person acting for Christ. Because it is Christ who moves in them, Christ who lives in them and acts in the. Thus they are already married, committed to the Church. As the Bride! They are the Grooms Men, the Groom of the Church who is the Bride. Of course this has not effect on those Dissidents because they believe in same sex sodomitic homosexual marriage. So it's okay for them :))


NO SUCH THING AS PRIESTESS IN CATHOLIC TRADTION, ONLY ON PAGAN RELIGIONS
Christ never mentioned PRIESTESS, or PRESBYTERESS, because they didn't see the need for such. They didn't accept and agree on that matter. As you see it is not just theologically incorrect to say Women Priests, it is also gramatically incorrect as they are PRIESTESS, they are PRIESTESS in the language defined as it shows a FEMININE argument. Now see here that only Pagans have priestess...perhaps??? Noo...but...what if??? Hmmm

BUSTING ANSWERING THE 7 REASONS PRESENTED IN A PRO-WOMEN ORDINATION WEBSITE

my comments in red
1. One priesthood in Christ
Through baptism women and men share equally in the new priesthood of Christ. This includes openness to Holy Orders.

so if I were to follow your logic, so is the people who are teens, children, gays, lesbians, gay who are lesbians and no matter their status is as long as they are baptized, they can preside in Holy Orders? You are misinterpreting the Priesthood of Believers presented by Christ which is for the mission to Evangelize and proclaim the Gospel, but not to Pastor his flock. So if everyone can share equally the priesthood then that means everyone can become a priest? So who needs laity and 10 years of study and prayer? Everyone is uin the priesthood of Christ you say.
2. Empowered to preside

At the Last Supper Jesus empowered both women and men. Both can be ordained to preside at the Eucharist.
At the last supper Jesus only had his 12 Apostels (Men) in the table. Now some Feminists claim Women are also present, well I agree. He empowered men and women alike. AGREE. But he didn not Empower both to preside. Only to his Apostles did he gave authority, only to his Apostles he gave a special gift to forgive and not to forgive. So what were the women doing at the last supper? Serving ofcourse! They were serving the Lord through cooking, fixing the table, and providing the necessities needed by the Apostles. And they didn't even complain about being not treated equally and started rallying and proclaiming radical theologies and then claiming that there exist a Girl Jesus. How great is that! They were humble and submitted to the authority of Christ and to the men he has appointed over them. To lead them. To pastor them, to Provide for them, and to Protect them!


3. Cultural bias

The Church’s practice of not ordaining women as priests was based on a three-fold prejudice against women. This affected the judgment of Church leaders.

Show me proof, that it is a prejudice against women...Then you would go on presenting conspiracy theories about having a female Jesus name Jesuette and SHE was erased in history and was made man because of prejudice against women. Want proof and defense why women were not ordained as priest? Holy Scriptures ain't enough for you? Church Documents seem too restrictive? Then go the the Church FATHERS!!! *ooopss*


4. Women have been deacons
Until at least the ninth century the Church gave women the full sacramental ordination of deacons. This proves women can be ordained.

Again, please provide me a document, a proof, and please let it be signed and proclaimed valid by the Pope of the current time, and not of a schismatic bishop or a heretical priest or a wayward prophet. Only then would I agree on this, as long as it is considered valid by the Pope.

5. The ability for women to be ordained has been present in the Church’s latent Tradition.

One example is the age-long devotion to Mary as Priest. It shows that, according to the ‘sense of the faithful’, in Mary the ban against women has already been overcome.

Huwatt?!?!? Age long devotion as a priest?!?! HUWAT?!!? Sacrilegous. Mama Mary, herself didn't claim priesthood. She was venerated as the Mother of God, Mother of the Church, our Mother and our guidance, but never as a priest. Even Pope John Paul II a HARD CORE!!! \m/ Devottee of the Blessed Virgin Mary disapproved of this matter. Did you read about Mama Mary teaching? or presiding about anything? A verse in the Bible says she knew all of these things (Christ's teachings) by heart and contemplated upon them in SILENCE! Seee she is a handmaiden of the Lord, obedient to his word, and obedient to the order he has established.

6. The wider Church accepts women priests

After serious study and prayer other Christian Churches now ordain women as priests. Though not everything other Churches do can be accepted by the Catholic Church, this converging consensus by believing Christians confirms that ordaining women is according to the mind of Christ.

This is a contridactory statement I'll just laugh it off. You say not everything other Churches do can be accepted by the Catholic Church and yet you claim that we can accept this as permissable because a MAJORITY of the Christians allowed it? Because DEMOCRACY applies? That's why God's Church is NEVER democratic, but rather a Kingdom...(more on this on later articles) he instituted a deciding factor body on this decision, it doesn't mean the voices of the People is God's will...heck no...Soo you're saying Christ to be crucified *majority by the way* was justifyable. Please....a simple 17 year old could see the loopholes in your loggic that taints the image of the Church.

7. Women too are, in fact, called to be priests

The fact that many responsible Catholic women discern in themselves a vocation to the priesthood is a sign of the Holy Spirit we may not ignore.

Conclusion: there are no valid arguments against women priests, and many truly Catholic arguments in favour!



THE CHURCH ON THE MODERN WORLD
The Church stands in the Modern World Strong and Faithful! To the ever standing tradition, discipline and doctrine on God Given roles to Men and Women. Popes of entire history has re-affirmed this decision over and over again. And our Pope Benedic XVI is defending it and upholding the legacy left by PopeJohn Paul II the Great. The question is not the shortage of priests, the commitment of the people or inclusiveness or such. The question is...God's Will. Is this his WILL for his Church.

Thankfully he has annointed leaders to govern us. Strong men to lead us, and faithful women (religious sisters) to support this men in upholding the truth on his Church and on his people

To God be the glory


~dabsq

PS
Larry D your comment is to be HIGHLY!!! Appreciated :P I would like you to know that I became a follower of your blog and an avid supporter of your cause. Hats off to you Bro!

Thursday, 13 May 2010

popcorn

the story
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it was a fun day, varying from electric shocks in our bodies, walking back in forth in the stores, trying out all the electronic gadgets in Plug-ins, waiting for charles and kevin to show up, buying popepyes and mitch wanting a biscuit, AJ overemphasizing on the gravy and being hyper in playing the games...it was amazing

we went to marina mall, originally planning to watch a movie at 12:30, then it was moved to 2, then 6 until we got to watch at 8:45. Why you ask? because we were waiting for the people who were *ehem* late...from the PLAN!!! :D

So I wen to josh's house about 11:00 PM, stayed there until 1:30 PM, we went to Marina Mall, met up with KC and AJ... me and josh talking about random stuff, AJ being the group hyper person, yeah its pretty much all about AJ being hyper and super active....stayed in Marina Mall until 4:45 PM, went to the beach and there met with Charles, Kevin, and Alain , had a swim, mitch splattered SLIMYYYY mud all over his body and face, and claims that after the beach his skin was softer, AJ swimming all around, me and mitch trying to pull AJ's shorts down, AJ ADMIRING THE BEAUTY of the girls, me making sand art. Like I planned to make a shark that ends up as a Tilapia, and an anaconda that ends up looking like a worm. We swam all around relaxing and making our past dreams a reality, of being carefree and just lying on the shore, experiencing happiness...

We stayed there and bid KC goodbye, after AJ's antics of borrowing the Towel, went to Marina Mall, bought tickets for Iron Man 2, and shared popcorns...

Iron Man 2 finished 11 PM, which was pretty late, but if we were given a choice we would still be hanging out with each other's home...there was no boisterous laughter, or senseless conversations all the time...nope there was just bonding and friendship. I went home, satisfied and happy...knowing I had these friends and I got the chance to know them.

the lesson
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Recently people especially in our batch are sad, about graduation, leaving, and everything...I am not here to criticize about them being sad, but that's the normal reaction...sadness because people are leaving and etc, and it kinda bothers me because...God gave us friends to be Happy that we met them and not to be sad when we leave them. Of course its normal to be sad for a week or two, but remember we would still see each other, what matters the most is that you learn to accept they are leaving, and you are being separated, in order to be happy. I also realized that happiness and sadness is not merely an emotion, but a state of being. Being happy at the same time missing your friends is allowable, but being sad and happy is irreconcileable. Happiness is the most when you realize that the people you met changed your life.

I also realized, there is no such thing as SUPERIOR group of friends, or COOL group of friends. You cannot treat your group of Friends as the lasting friendship as you don't know what would happen in the future. Stop making promises to be "FOREVER" if you don't know if there is even Ever....Its nice to dream, its ok to visualize, but do not restrict yourself into new friendships and open possibilities, do not compare your friends NOW and your friends BEFORE, because you'll never be happy. Learn to Let go!

Lastly, the greatest lesson I learned during the day...

"You'll never realize that those moments are Treasured Moments until they are over"

Many would not agree as they would claim that they know a moment is to be treasured if they are feeling it currently. No, I beg to disagree...you'll never be able to realize that THAT moment is to be treasured until it is over, because you'll begin missing it, you'll begin wanting it again, and you'll realize the lessons behind it. It is because we were sooo caught up with the moment that we forget that its probably gonna be the last...May 12, 2010 is the only May 12, 2010 in our whole of lifetime, nothing can ever bring that day, that moment forever.

That's why I always say...Good or Bad

TREASURE EVERY MOMENTS....with your friends, family, loved-one, siblings, GOD :)

friendship is not about hanging out together, laughing together, having the same interests and etc...no..


Friendship is about having genuine Love for one another

~dabsq

Wednesday, 12 May 2010

a day with my FRIENDS

ahh, i enjoyed this day :) a lot...tnx for hanging out guys :)

gonna blog abt it tommorow!

GB
~dabsq

P.S.
super secret boyband

Monday, 3 May 2010

Temporary Leave

I just dont feel blogging lately :) just want to see and feel what happens...Talk when needed :) I dont need to shout out to the world about my feelings if I can have true friends, true brothers and sisters to share about my trials in life ;) sooo yeah :)) Magbloblog parin aq, but after this period of reflection GB@
~dabsq

Wednesday, 28 April 2010

realizing God's Fullness

Today is the day of the MEC...now mind you that I am very excited...However I am currently here in schoool, typing in a laptop...I still have 2 exams to go with Josh, but I am very much excited for our News Crew Skit that we're gonna do later...Josh is the one who thought of this idea! "Good job bro!" and yes...this would be my last MEC....Hope to make it worth it!

cge na, I still have to UNstudy!

God Bless

~dabsq

Thursday, 22 April 2010

24/7

I've been working on this Filipino Project for the last 3 weeks and my earliest time to sleep 2:30 AM

Is it all worth it?

yeap, I know it is :D
~dabsq

ps1...with mitch and josh right now
ps2...that depends...you choose your own ending :D

Tuesday, 20 April 2010

i wanted...

i wanted to post something today...but i am just caught off with all these deadlines and projects...

ill post something on our overnight session this thurs...see u till den!

~dabsq

Sunday, 18 April 2010

respect

Never allow anyone to disrespect you. You get what you tolerate; teach others to respect you by being respectful to them too, Your actions speak so loudly, people around you won't hear what you're saying.
~GOD

~dabsq

Wednesday, 14 April 2010

change

things will change...you may like them, you may despise them...but they will change, whether you like it or not...change is inevitable, because through change we come one step closer to perfection, one step closer to holiness, until we are to be like God...who will, has, and never changes, because change is a step, that you'll have to cross to be closer to God...and by that time...we don't need change anymore...

because everything would be perfect in its place :)

~dabsq

Tuesday, 13 April 2010

an simply amazing day ^^

well what else could I say...simple days are amazing days :)

today I got to wake up in the morning, not feeling sucky, tired and bad...I just woke up feeling sleepy, but I got the feeling of peace inside me, the feeling of being relaxed for that single moment, and dare I treasured it throughout the day. When I got to school, for once the door was not locked, and I was able to go inside intending to sleep, but since I got to school 15 minutes late of my usual timing, Mitch and Josh were already there so I sat down with them and laptopped :>

That day, we almost didn't have any lessons, it was a day of rest and break...however, some of our teachers still taught lessons, well of course I was feeling sleepy and all, but I tried my best to fight it off. After the lessons of those teachers, we just came back with our laptop works. You could just see the classroom, full of people using laptops, we had 6 laptops in the room being used, in the second period after lunch. I went down to check with KC the money of the SSC, and we talked about random stuff, and she hurt really really really bad. But we got to finish the checking of budget. We hid the money on its "SECRET" location then I said goodbye and etc. As the third period begins everyone just scrambles up to Justine's MACBOOK and watched SAW V. I guess they didn't like it...heck I myself DESPISEEE SAW V!!! Although I am a fan of the SAW series.

After the laptops, at last period we got to answer our Algebraic Activities which I was surprised that I GET IT! Even though I don't listen and my mind just wanders off from time to time, thank God for this privilege. After in which we started to clean up the place and I went down worrying about how to go to Sophia's place, since I didn't know where it was. Since everyone was supposed to be in Dar Al-Shifa as soon as possible, and I was required to stay at school until 4:00 PM to finish up my constitutional review with Sir Chad. When  went to the Science Laboratory, 10 minutes later, Josh, Charles and Mitch appeared. After 20 minutes charles said goodbye, and I asked mitch when they'll go, they said 4:20, and I requested them to wait for me. Thank you, because they waited for me.

After walking the shortcuts, hearing Mitch complaining to Josh about walking and the fueneral girls that were following us, we got to Dar Al-Shifa in where we were criticized by the people...90% of the crew who were already there for being late...although this was our first time. After discussing and waiting for one of the crew members, we just left and started walking to sophia's place...IT WAS LIKE A MAZE! I felt that I left Abu DHabi for a second...We walked for 20 minutes, then stayed at sophia idly for 15 minutes. When we started shooting, with missing casts, we decided to make much of what's left. Josh became Padre Camorra, and I am Tandang Pablo "I think" We started shooting in this open areas, roads and etc. Then as darkness approaches,we were able to shoot the necessary scenes outside and shot the remaining scenes inside. After going around the Villa and etc. After trying different angles, getting tripped over, ridiculous cuts, and etc. We've done it! After running up and down the stairs, after having awkward moments of Julie's almost rape scenes, after eating all of the food in Sophia's house and Sophia dressing like a chinese woman just to look like a sacristian, we  DID IT! And decided to go home to continue shooting timings for tommorow.

While walking home we were able to have fun, scaring each other while walking. Looking at stuffs, at the eyes looking back at us, running back and forth and screaming. After 15-20 minutes of doing this horseplay we were able to get our taxis together with mitch and Kevin I rode a taxi home...

This is one of those days, those days that we could cherish and treasure, moments that would make us laugh and cry. Moments that would surely make us smile whenever we think about them. Moments  are more memorable and cherish-able if laughter, happiness, friendship, and love are found in them :)

~dabsq

ps1...UII BRIDGE! :P La lng :D
ps2...its cold inside here my parents room, and the fan is blowing right at me...
ps3...break from cutting and trimming for now...ssc stuff and resolutions na muna ;)

Friday, 9 April 2010

the choice: introduction

i am here right now...writing a blog at 3:49 AM, with no one to chat with, the computer in front of me...telling me to write something. My siblings sleeping, me listening to music...

Mind I tell you that I've chosen rather not to sleep, even though I have a big day ahead of me. I plan to start this day right...by jogging in the streets of abu dhabi at 5:30 AM. Because its a choice that I've made. The choice that I have to sacrifice something to gain something better.

Since I've got lots of spare time and I am feeling a hell of awake, I have chosen to write this blog. This won't be the normal blog of randomness and fun. The blog about updates that happened in my life. This is not just about being optimistic and always looking on the lighter side of things, looking into reality. In this blog sharing, there would be many parts, many roads, many choices. You'll see who I am for what I really am, you'll see the choices that have affected my life, and made me who I am today. This series of stories is not the normal series full of laughter, you'll see a warrior bleed, get hurt, die....

This is about choice, as I start this journey, of choices, few readers as I have...may you be enlightened and see how God transformed me...how he changed me...and how my wrong choices that almost destroyed me...

This is my story....

Our Story :)
THE CHOICE: INTRODUCTION

We've always been given choices. Life is full of choices, choices ranging from clothes, to shoes, to fast foods, friends, families and the people you are going to love. Choices that sometimes we disregard as a minor influence in our lives. Choices that we've regretted only after being broken down into pieces by the same choices that we've done.

Wrong choices
I impress a girl...and EPIC FAIL
I was around 7 or 6 during that time... It was a happy day I remembered. Our neighborhood girl across the street comes to play with us during this noon, because it was school vacation. My brother comes to play with us and does some random stuff. Then when he saw a hollow block, right around the corner he picks it up and lifts it up with his hands. The girl was impressed *no we don't have crushes on her, we just like to impress our friend* Since I don't wanna be taken out of the show I lifted the hollow block and tried to lift another one, that was 2 hollow blocks...being 7 and stupid at that time, I lost my balance and a hollow block fell from my hand striking the head my observing brother below me. There was blood, and my parents rushed out and attended to him..I just stood there, then flexed my muscles at the girl.

The basic instinct of human nature is to do choose something that would benefit himself/herself. Rarely this days that people choose to sacrifice their choice for the sake of others. Right then and there, they have already decided to choose for themselves...choose who they are, choose who they want to become...Have you ever tried smelling candles flavored in strawberry. They smell good enough to eat, but that is just a deception because once you eat them, the taste disappears, rather you taste a dull, disgusting wax mixed in strawberry essence and red coloring. Wrong choices are like these candles they seem to be inviting and good at first, but once you've got to accomplish them, things becomes worst. And we mostly choose wrong things because this is what satisfies us. This is easier, this is what WE think is Right...Always about me, me, me. From that point, you've already made the decision. Your choice is yourself alone.

Wrong Choice
I melt, I scream...I die....
I was in front of an assembly of people. Doing my best talking to them. I was around 13 or 14 that time. And it feels good to be always accepted by everyone. Viewed by everyone as good and holy. It feels good being complimented and getting a shake on the hand for a nice talk delivered. I had to do my best so that people would like me. I had to speak my best so that they'll listen to me...I had to be good to them so that they would accept me. This is what runs in my mind during those days of talking in front of assemblies of people. Everyone had to be a fan, everyone had to like me, everyone must think I am holy and never failing in serving God...everyone have to accept me, or else inside, I feel myself melting...screaming....dying.... I was addicted for the approval of others, that one particular assembly changed all that. The tables turned on that assembly, that this time, everyone was not a fan, everyone is angry at me, everyone is questioning me, everyone is pointing fingers at me...I was called for this meeting to be ridiculed and be hurt, by the very people I've trained to be in this assembly. I felt dying inside. One bad word about me makes me wanna jump of a building, but a group of people rallying against me just ruins my life...That was what ran within my mind...so I made a terrible choice...

I didn't become angry, and did what they wanted me to do...

Having your choice for yourself is not that all bad, but wanting your whole choice for the benefit of your own is just sheer selfishness. I was an approval addict before, now I am still fighting this addiction. For me, my choice is not mine, but for the other around me. I let their words manipulate me, change me, and replace who I am inside.  Thus giving them a chance to choose for me. Wanting the approval and acceptance of others is not bad, but when you want this to be accomplished 100% then that is called an addiction. Wanting everyone's love and attention thus giving up your own choice for their benefits alone is pure stupidity. It's the lack of self love that pushes a person to their limits. The lack of self trust and esteem to carry on a challenge...the lack of choosing for oneself...Situations come in where people let other choose for them, this is not bad, but this is a sign of weakness. A sign of submission to the world, and to its influence around you. A sign of giving up your choice for the sake of approval and acceptance by the very people who won't love you.

A sign of stupidity....

Right Choice
I gave up Love
She was beautiful, stunning and  everyone likes her. I even got a small crush on her. I didn't know her that much, until we spent time serving in a Summer Camp together. Coming in together every day. Laughing during breaks, telling her jokes, and teasing her with love songs. It was a simple friend-crush relationship. I've never had a girlfriend before. Ever since I was born 14 years ago, I didn't even think of courting girls. But this one, well shes like those others who I would just be able to love from afar, then our feelings would just fade out...

I was dead wrong

3 days later I have committed myself to stay single for the next 7 years, we got a chance to talk...A chance to chat...The chat that probably made me choose one of the hardest decisions I have to make. She told me that she likes me...to hell...she LOVES me...It was a surprise for me, a huge surprise. I insignificant, below-average, religious, non athletic guy like me? She who is popular, stunningly beautiful, has dated athletic and good looking guys in the past falls in love with a guy like me. I asked her why...she told me because I have proven to her that I cared for her. After being happy for 5 minutes I remembered a commitment that i have just made...a commitment to my God that was easily unbreakable, since it was just 3 days. But I don't know what drove me to fight but I didn't break that commitment. Weeks passed, we became sweeter on text and calls on the fone and chats on the messenger. We are even paired up and have kilig moments together. But I keep reminding her...Don't wait for me, there are a lot of guys out there who are more deserving than me. But she insists that she'll wait 7 years...Sadly i was wise enough to know that she can't do this...

So I made a hard choice....It was hard but it was the right one. I've chosen to let her go. To let this MU relationship die. So I stopped talking to her, chatting and etc. It was hard for me, to fall in love with a girl that fell in love with me and I can't even call her as my girl friend...Because of one word..."commitment" 

Months passed, the relationship died, she was now seeing somebody else, I became angry for this, I know it was dumb since it was my own decision. But I blamed her for hurting me, while I was the one to blame for hurting myself...by choosing to delay choosing the right decision. I could've cut her off when we were chatting, but I've risked it. Now she's lost, I am lost...I am hurt and broken...

No choice but to move on...7 years is a long road ahead...

The right choices are often the hardest ones. People always claim that there are easier solutions in life, it is true. But that only applies in techniques, equations, skills and in things. That doesn't apply in personal decisions...Choices that you have to correct because you've chosen a wrong path before. Sometimes people torture themselves by making things complicated by putting in the equation their own preferences, rather than focusing on what is right. Focusing on what's going to benefit both parties and won't sacrifice morality. Choices when lifted up to God, are better choices because through this ways, you would be given a choice to follow his path for you...to follow a better road for you. Although he is not promising that the road would be easy...the goal would be worth it. Choices are not meant to be kept to yourself, or given 100% to others...

Choices are meant to be lifted up to God, then decided upon yourself for the greater good of the people around you and for you. Love yourself, love others, and Love your God above all.

This is the choice...and here is where you choose....

this is the reality...face it now

~dabsq

ps1...I've finished this blog 4:40 AM...one hour till I go down.
ps2...listening to second hand serenade right now....your call...they are emo people
ps3...assignments tommorow: go to IFSAM, go to JOSH, start COMMERCIAL, talk to KC, Charles and Kat.
ps4...thanks to all my imaginary readers :) your efforts are appreciated...

Thursday, 8 April 2010

update!

i am at josh's house right now...Josh says hi! anddd :D charles is with us soo yeah


editing later ;)
GBU

~dabsq


IFSAM...:)) no comment

today 2

we shooted scenes for el fili, and i got to borrow the ssc laptop...

the important people were not there, but thank God for AJ, Katherine, Feb and Mitz! At least our efforts were not wasted

~dabsq