Saturday, 2 January 2016

Goodbye

I am retiring this blog, will not be closing it though.

Will migrate to another blog, I promise that I will try to write regularly (cue: every day)

Will probably break that promise...doesn't matter

Life is full of contradictions and paradoxes

See you there! ciao!

~Q

Tuesday, 15 October 2013

My Ten Stories of Light (My 10 Day Journey towards YFC MetroCon 2013: LUMINO)


"Even so let your light shine before men; that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven."
-Matthew 5:16

What is Light? 
Or perhaps the better question is...what is darkness?
If we were to believe the Internet Chain Letters, then there is no such thing as darkness...For darkness is a concept wherein there is an absence of Light...
So therefore we come back to the same question...what is Light?
Two of the very first friends I met in YFC.
Badette my ever beautiful partner and Kuya Gebard our huggable and lovable Area Head.
Light as defined by the Webster's Dictionary: the form of energy that makes it possible to see things.
a form that makes it possible to see
makes it possible to see
to see...

Wednesday, 4 January 2012

LIVE Simply

I Eat...A Lot

I Eat whenever I am bored, sad, happy, ecstatic, gay, angry, stupified, confused, or whatsoever.
A Test coming up...The Solution? EAT!
Fight with Loved ones...EAT
Bored?....EAT!

Eating has always been a solution in my life. It does not give me any kind of "cloud nine" feeling, but it gives me the feeling of escaping from the tough world I struggle in everyday.

I Spend...a LOT
When I am too lazy to take the jeep, or wait for one I ride the taxi. When I am bored to search for my pen I buy one. That's why my allowance is always forced to the negative limit. One of my weakest personalities is to budget my allowance. That's why my Father goes bald in frustration as I keep on asking for advances for the next four months!

I Waste...a LOT
Recycled Paper? Naaaahh! Just buy another ream of new bond papers. Old notebooks without anything written on them? Throw them away. Ballpens missing in a messy room? Buy another batch of pilot ballpens. It's always been like this for me, my parents didn't teach me to be like this, but this is how I acted when I was in the Philippines. As if money could be found under a rock, or grown in trees. I waste a lot of things that could be reused, but out of laziness and the desire for new things I just throw them away.


I ATE, SPENT and WASTED a lot of things in 2011. Living like how a King lives, a stubborn and bratty king that is. Reflecting around my past misdeeds, I have seen our Lord Jesus Christ through the clothes of the poor. Christ who came in a humble manger, actually a cave to be born with a carpenter as a Father, and a 15 year old as a mother. Who lived 18 years as a humble carpenter fixing stools, doors and wheel burrows. The one who created all things was able to live simply as a carpenter and be actually happy.

We often see people who are happy, and contented not among the wealthy class but those who have less, but have enough. Material things would never fill that black hole that revolves in our heart called satisfaction. Before it became a black hole that feeds on anything it sees, it was once a Star. When God created humanity, he created within their hearts a Glowing warm star that radiates love, comfort and satisfaction. When the serpent tempted Eve, this star died was corrupted and since then has been feeding on temporary things that do nothing but increase it size.

The only thing that could satisfy this Black Hole Heart is the original star of Betlehem. The only one we need to be truly happy. Not the material, nor intellectual possessions, but the star that radiates assurance, safety and satisfaction.

Let us allow Jesus to become the star of our hearts to satisfy all our needs. And as a part of God's message for me I have convicted myself to

LIVE SIMPLY

To eat foods that I don't want to eat like vegetables
To sacrifice things that i don't really need but are just "luhos"
To remove all the distractions in my life as I learn to arrange my life so that the Star of Jesus within my heart would be the one who People would see. So that it is JESUS who would give comfort to the people. So that they could see that me a former glutton has found ultimate Satisfaction in him who is ENOUGH...

Our Lord Jesus Christ

AMEN


~dabsq

Tuesday, 3 January 2012

365 Days

Funny how in just a short span of 365 days, seemingly random numbers that have no mathematical meaning whatsoever, a random combination of even and odd numbers that make up a three digit number is able to wake us up into reality from time to time. What is 365 days but the number of days it takes for the earth to complete a whole revolution around a star? What is it with those 365 days that makes us think differently, encourages us to make resolutions to keep, and relationships to fix? What is it with three, six and five that makes us shout out for a celebration for just another 365 days?

Because since the beginning that's how God has created humanity, he has created a creature that looks forward every single day. A creature that anticipates the surprise of his creator for him at the rising of the sun, and reflects about his contribution to those around him as it sets. God has created a creature excited for something. A creature that seeks to continually change and transform himself/herself as time goes by. 365 days is an indicator of a year, a full revolution around a star that gives us light and heat. A reminder that 365 days has passed since we have anticipated for something greatly new in our lives. For me this year comes as a different year.

This is a year for me where I choose and convict myself to 3 simple values. 3 Values that are highly regarded in our community, but on my hand have failed to follow throughout these years. This 365th day is another cause for me to celebrate how God has provided me another chance to allow HIM to transform MY life. The message of the Lord for me this year is simple and yet can create miracles and wonders for my personal and spiritual life. I look forward and see a tough road ahead, but the goal is worth it. He who waits at the cross, walking with me side by side.

LIVE SIMPLY, LOVE FULLY, PRAY DEEPLY


~dabsq

Thursday, 7 July 2011

Monday, 2 May 2011

Its been a while

Hello blog...its been a while since I wrote to you
Maybe its because of all the shitty things happening around me
Or possibly all the ecstatic revelations and blessings that surrounded me these past few weeks...

I missed you blog, the times that we spent together when we live back in MULTIPLY, now in our new home blogger I hope I could  visit you once in a while...but I just can't

You see I visit you on 3 occasions mainly, when I receive such wonderful realizations and blessings, when I want people to hear my voice and post random things...and when I just want to vent anger, confusion, rage, pissed off-ness and the likes....

I plan on doing the latter part right now...

I am effin Pissed, i don't know why or if I should indeed be pissed but I am pissed. But don't get me wrong blog I am pissed because of myself, I blame myself for this feelings no other people should be blamed. I AM PISSED, that's it. It's fun to express my rage well by swearing and all, but as a person I know that those won't be right heck I am a hypocrite devouring my own words when I wasn't one. I am weak, I sin, I make mistakes, I fall, I fail to understand, I fail to be patient, I fail to be loving...I fail to be all these sort of things

Possibly because of not visiting for a long time I haven't noticed a comment that told me that I was a hypocrite. My dear sir thank you for waking up my senses, I agree I am a hypocrite, but sir let me tell you one thing, I for one am not proud of it. I proclaim it boldly that I am a human being but I am proud to admit my hypocrisy and can boldly say that I could and I would follow the path to repentance as I approach God's leading in my life...

Yeah I am pissed at all the epals of the world, but philosophizing on that fact, aren't we all EPALS in one way or another? We keep on bumping into each other's lives without being asked for by the other party. Or is it because they themselves are epals for not asking us? It makes the world go around and I don't even know If I am making sense...


One thing that makes this world bearable is Love. Yeah LOVE, nothing else. I am supposed to write something bubbly and gooey cheesy icky, but I chose to delete it, I don't know I don't like what I was about to write....

Ohh...look at me I was just greeting you blog, but I strayed off from what I was suppose to do...

post a cute picture of a kitten
He seems like a ninja right? Yeah a fast sly sneaking ninja!

Oh well till again blog...ciao ;)

~dabsq


ps1....I love you dzidzi :) (Rianne Clarisse Quilang)
ps2....For my family thank you for making my stay hear exciting...para kay beth at tina, oh my gosh nagkasideline ako dahil sa inyo ahahhaa :))

ps3...Josh SEE this PS3? Yeah that's what you should do PLAY! :))

ps4...I hope this console comes out soon

Friday, 11 March 2011

ORDERED CHAOS: Rebuilding the crumbling society through the Social Sciences

My second rigorous "paper" that was rushed to be done within a span of 5 hours...-.-
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ORDERED CHAOS
Rebuilding the crumbling society through the Social Sciences
I.                    INTRODUCTION
        The moment that we’re born, or even during the time that we’re being nurtured in our Mother’s womb, we were already being prepared to enter into a greater form of inclusion. Through the process lf socialization we are absorbed into different culture, laws, habits, customs, practices and beliefs so that we could be ready for the different encounters we may experience in this place (Andersen and Taylor, 2003, p. 64)  A place outside the safety of the womb, a place where there exist diverse individuals who were like us were integrated and accepted as members of this certain a place. It is the place that we would be growing, learning and dying into, the place that we have come to know as the society. A society that interacts, decide and is mobilized through the different ideas and theories of its members, a society where an individual’s action may affect a fellow companion’s life course of direction in one’s life.
           As according to Spencer’s ideology, a society would develop like an organism. There is a sense of interdependence and correlation between the different members of society. Which in effect builds up and sustains society as an organism wherein exists different parts working with one another. It is therefore crucial for the survival and preservation of society that studies for the workings of the social dynamics of the society. This drive has created a wave of ideas that from different times, places, and personalities all over the world regards the different fields of economics, sociology, anthropology, and the like that gave born to what we know now as the Social Sciences.

II.                  THE SOCIAL SCIENCES
        There are different views and ideas regarding on what the definition of Social Sciences is. A particular view on the Social Sciences from Hollis (2002)
                        Social Science, in Mill’s view, must be grounded in ‘the laws of nature of individual man’ because                                         it has as subject matter only ‘the actions and passions of human beings united together in the                                       social state’. These actions and passions are ‘obedient to the laws of individual human nature.                                    However, and the logic of the moral sciences is one which lets us identify these laws. (p.10)
        Here we see that the study of Social Sciences rests upon the different laws that govern individuals. Whether these laws are external, such as mores, or internal, such as internal psychologically pre-determined actions, in nature they can greatly affect the decision and movement of an individual. As earlier stated in this paper wherein an individual’s course of actions can cause such great impact on the internal workings of society that can either stabilize or cause dysfunction on the normal workings of the society that we live in. In order to prevent the destabilizing and crumbling of the foundations of society, a study that covers the effects of these factors on the different individuals, social groups or even on the society as a whole.
        The study of Social Sciences can also be related upon the search of the social truth on order, morality and institutions. Some may claim that truth is relativistic and may twist as far as time and culture is concerned, others claim that truth may never be discovered as it is impossible for the truth to be revealed to the world.  I on the other hand believe that this is not the case and we should not feel complacent on the idea that relativistic truth is enough to preserve this society. As            Relativism is a dangerous thinking for it leaves nothing to be definitive, but rather leaves the criterion only with one’s self thus causing one to be imprisoned under the semblance of freedom which in turn separating individuals from one another locking them into their own egos (Pope  Benedict XVI, 2005).
        According to Hollis (2002), “The truth to be searched into was truth about nature, meaning the universe as God had created and furnished it. Both ways of discovering the true order in nature in applying Reason scientifically” (p.23). Thus the call for truth to be discovered. This is what I believe the study of Social Sciences really is, to discover and impart the truth on the different aspects and internal workings of the society. If this truth is left upon the different individuals to twist and manipulate as subject under the guise of change in “culture” or “time” then we would not be studying what is the truth on society but rather some idea concocted by people different people within their brains.
        Society continues to develop and is under change which is inevitable. Social Sciences in turn takes upon the role as to reflect what happens in society that will not just explain how it exist, but also in its development and growth (Aditjondro, 1995, p.39) Social Sciences can be considered as an echo of what has transpired within the society. And the study of this ‘echo’ could be considered as the analysis of the Social Sciences. The term Social Sciences is usually used to refer to the study of the different areas in which human beings interact or are personified in nature. These are the sciences where the “social” dynamics is taken into consideration, which are used to take determine how a society, or an individual would react or work given a particular situation. Although they are interrelated to one another, there exists autonomy of each of this disciplines, an autonomy that presents their own unique identity and methods of study (Backhouse and Fontaine, 2010, p. 222)
         The study of the Social Sciences enables us to discover and brings us closer to finding the truth that we need in order to preserve the dignity and the same time the unity of the society that we live in. The society we live in continues to grow and develop, and alongside its development a lot of ills and flaws are creeping their way into the system that poisons the society within causing its corruption and decay. Social Sciences would enable us to be alert of this decay, and study on how to defeat it and prevent it from eating society from inside out.
        The students of the Social Sciences may be considered as social activists. We must strive to protect this society that we belong to. The call exists to defend and uphold the truth that is to be found within the confides of the society, and this truth may be discovered through different means, one of which would greatly help in forwarding this discovery for truth is the study and appreciation of the Social Sciences.


III.                  MY CALL TO DISCOVER: SEEING MYSELF IN MY CHOSEN CAREER
         When I first entered the University of the Philippines Baguio, I have already expressed the inner desire to fight not for liberal ideologies or moral activism. Rather I have within me the desire to study and know how I could find the truth. My first course which is BA Communications gave me no satisfaction in quenching this thirst for the knowledge that I have sought which would benefit my cause. That in turn gave way for me in exploring other courses, which is where I have discovered Social Science particularly Social Anthropology. This was the beginning of my deep appreciation on the study of Social Sciences. When the 2nd Semester started and I took up my introductory course on Social Anthropology, I was literally drowned on the different theories and ideologies from Comte, to Weber, to Marx. Different viewpoints and stands that enabled me to further understand that the original goal that I wanted to achieve would not be easy as these different people came up with these ideologies after years of studies and observation. What made it more difficult that although many of them opposed one another as to their different viewpoints, all of them had their reasonable arguments that would further explain how and why society acts in this particular way.
        These men of great knowledge had given me the inspiration to pursue the knowledge yet untouched. The knowledge that is yet to be understood and accepted by people. I seek to study all of their ideologies, compare them with each other, critique them and create my own ideology which I would be basing on what I have observed and I have studied. I would try my best to remove the flaws and imperfections on their theories and to come up with a near-perfect theory on society and the guidelines in preserving its moral stability and dignity at the same way further increasing its potential for development. I believe that our society is in danger; it is crumbling as would be discussed in the later parts of this paper. The importance and relevance of the Social Sciences especially in inter-disciplinary studies is great but also varies from one field of discipline to another. Caution must be given so as not to put or define a certain hierarchy between the different aspects of the social sciences as each branch touches their own field of knowledge is interdependent to the other branches that are the cause of its survival and development. The strategy of this poison is to corrupt this branches, one by one slowly creeping schools of thought which are relativistic in nature and seems to disregard the original goal of the social sciences and that is to understand how and why society acts this way. I want to start a revolution as a Social Scientist and Activist that would call upon every individual to take up their arms and fight against the poison that is rotting and eating the society that we are living in.
        I do not have any specific jobs, or office works in mind. I do however have a career plan, a goal to preserve and protect this society. I aim to be a Sociologist in despite of my future course in Film. I aspire to be a Social Scientist whose goal is to uphold who we are as the human race. So that we could pass on what we have learned and understood in our study of society to our children so that they too may take part in the preservation of the society hundreds of generations would later pass on.
IV.                RELATING SOCIAL SCIENCES WITH SOCIOLOGY
        Social Sciences could be easily related to Sociology as the very essence of Sociology is the study of Society. Sociology may encompass most if not all of the aspects of Social Sciences, as it touches society from without and within. The study of Social Sciences is very crucial in order for me to further push forward for the cause of finding and protecting the different ideals and values that our society has lived upon.
        It is according to my personal opinion that there must be an absolute truth, an absolute order of natural things, the same way as the natural law of gravity exist there too must exist a natural social law that would govern all human beings that belong in the society. So that whoever becomes deviant of that group may be re-educated or eliminated as they could infect the people living within the society with their flawed values and beliefs. This too would avoid the clash of unethical ideas and inhumane traces of thoughts that has for centuries plagued our society, thus preventing our development and growth.
        Social Sciences enables us aspiring Social Anthropologists to take into consideration the different methods that would give us accurate results and pre-determined theories that would confirm whatever data or observation that we have gathered. The different methods and ideologies found within the theory of Social Sciences gives way for the expansion and advancement of Sociology. As earlier cited that Social Sciences serves as a ‘reflection’ of society proves that Social Anthropologists can use this as their main camp where they could do their research and base upon their findings and experiments that would discover how we would better react and solve certain situations and problems that hinders our natural development as potential individuals. The study of Social Sciences gives Social Anthropology a variety of choices to plunge into and analyze in order to preserve its belief and ideals. It is by its very sense a branch of the Social Sciences which makes it relation with other branches easier. Compatibility is the key term here, for without it the inter-relation of the disciplines within the Social Sciences may cause its collapse. 
        Social Anthropology continues to go deeper to the core of society, reaching far within as deep as the minds of the individuals living in a certain society. This helps us to determine how individuals would act in groups as Psychology is considered as a part of the Social Sciences, it also gives us insight on how interpersonal dynamics and communication takes place within the different groups existing within a society. Symbols, hand gestures and different modes of communications such as language are the main basis of these different means (Henslin, 2004, p. 12). Social Sciences also is relevant to Social Anthropology as it offers Economics as one of its branches where Social Anthropologists may study the relation of the people with the workings of the market. How people would react when the economy breaks and how humanity seems to survive and thrive in despite of economic depressions. Through this we continue to learn more about the movements of different people and even corporations in that matter when it is regard to the distribution of resources. There are countless ways where Social Sciences are relevant to Social Anthropology, for the aspects on the study of Society would remain endless as long as Society continues to exist, expand and develop.

V.                  CONCLUSION: THE STRUGGLE TO PRESERVE
        We live in a society that is fast changing and seeking a direction where it has been before. The term “history repeats itself” may be very applicable to the situation that we face now a days. The title of this paper, Ordered Chaos refers to the very essence of what the society is an order within chaos that seeks to move forward as one whole unified body. But this order is being threatened as within the chaos spurns a web of disunity and disarray. And this disarray may bring good at some effect as it breaks some inhumane tradition (e.g. slavery, discrimination of women) but at the same time may cause the destruction of the society that we know of today. There exists a need to focus on the road to modernity where there exist social representations serving not just as reflection, but as constitutive of those individual relations (Outhwaite, 2006, p.60).
        I personally believe that the society that we are living on is crumbling. As the curse of Moral Relativism had infiltrated and corrupted the very core of society and continues to poison the future of this society, the youths of this generation. Moral Relativism as I’ve said is a dangerous thinking for it enables one to create one’s laws and can make one’s self dominant over all the others and alienating one’s personality thus causing an individual’s separation from society. People also tend to use downward comparisons with other people for it follows a cognitive process that seeks to find people within your surroundings that are worse off so that you could enhance and protect yourself or your sense of security (Noelker and Harel, 2001, p. 13). This is the result of the selfish desire of human nature to be ahead, to make better for one’s self and to put one’s life above the good of others.
        What if these people didn’t separate and society accepted their ideas on Moral Relativism and acceptance of changing values; it would all be good right? Since society has accepted to follow and change the norm, they have agreed to follow a certain ideal because they have chosen it as the majority decided, it would balance all things right? Not exactly, the same way that you could not make “2 + 2 =5” true even though the whole world may agree on it, you cannot deny the existence of a moral objective truth. Truth that has been disregarded for the sake of the easy solutions offered my Moral Relativism. And if society continues to act this way and makes no regard for its actions, we are building upon block by block a foundation that would crumble and cause society’s fall sooner or later. I am not claiming nor suggesting that our whole society is based on a moral web of lies, but rather implying that originally we have been built with the original nature to preserve and recognize the dignity and importance of interdependence and life. But somewhere along the way, a poison or personal flaw has crept within the society with the means to destroy the society that has been built upon from within.
        Recently experts have been considering accepting Pedophilia as a Sexual Orientation rather than a perversion, a rather exquisite example, a taste of how few minds and manipulative instincts could change the opinionated truth that is accepted by everyone. A few rallies here, oppressed statements there and we could see lawmakers passing anti pedophilic discrimination laws. Again Moral relativism has won and the objective truth that pedophilia is a PERVERSION has been disregarded. Different groups are fighting for radical change, equal rights and societal acceptance and tolerance. The question remains however on the things they are promoting to change and to share to the world. Would it be beneficial and enhance the quality and dignity of life of humanity? Or would it just objectify and belittle the life giving properties of human beings as to contraception on my personal belief.
        Society is hanging by a brink, there is the need to turn back and find the objective truth, there is the need to bring back the lost values and morals that has been replaced with shallow arguments based on selfish wants and innovations. The call echoes to us all, the struggle remains. The preservation of society lies within our own very hands, no time to waste and let’s get moving.


































REFERENCES:

Andersen, M.L., TAYLOR, H.F., (2003). Sociology: The Essentials (2nd ed.). Belmont, CA: Wadsworth/Thomson Learning.

Aditjondro G.J., (1995). Implications of a Shift from ‘Pro-State’ to ‘Pro-Society’ Social Scientists. In Nordholt, N.S., Visser, L., Social Science in Southeast Asia: From Particularism to Universalism. Amsterdam: VU University Press/CASA.

Hollis, M., (2002). The philosophy of social science: an introduction. United Kingdom, UK: Cambridge University Press.

Outhwaite, W., (2006). The Future of Society. Malden, MA: Blackwell Publishing Ltd.

Henslin, J.M. (2004). Essentials of Sociology: A Down to Earth Approach (5th ed.). Boston, MA: Allyn and Bacon.

Backhouse, R.E., Fontaine, P., (2010). Towards a History of the Social Sciences. In Backhouse, R.E., Fontaine, P., The History of the Social Sciences since 1945. New York, NY: Cambridge University Press .

Noelker, L.S., Harel, Z., (2001). Linking Quality of Long-Term Care and Quality of Life. New York, NY: Springer Publishing Company Inc.

Allen, J.L., (2005). Do-it-yourself religion ‘cannot ultimately help us,’ pope tells youth. National Catholic Reporter. Retrieved from http://www.nationalcatholicreporter.org/word/ wyd082105.htm




~dabsq

Saturday, 8 January 2011

50 Things about me as told by my dzidzi

DEAR READERS HERE IS A BLOG EXCERPT GALING SA AKING DZIDZI/God's Gift/Girlfriend si Rianne xD
Paki basa, put your comments below or dun sa status sa FB hahahaha :P


AGAIN I REPEAT! SI RIANNE/YHANE po ang nagsulat nito hindi ako hahahha xD

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He had always asked me.
I never answered.
What is it that makes him crazy?
About that silly things about him that I love and hate.
He often nags. And I can’t damn answer.
Maybe I did. But I guess I never did.
Maybe I just never satisfied his question.
so let me put a period to all the nagging.
So who is he? To me.
I’ll describe.

Monday, 27 December 2010

Photo Journey Series "THE BEGINNING"

At last…after a looonngg time, I am able to blog again. Uhmm, you are all probably hating me right now my dear imaginary readers because of my failure to keep my promise to Blog important events. Well, I must admit that I am really a blogger of EPIC *Excusable Palpable Ingenious Cursed* Proportions…so yeah…Just a quick history of my blogging style…2007, I blog like all my readers are Old People because I use FONTS THIS BIG and in an annoying way, I use the Comic Sans font in typing, so yea…it is indeed weird. But as I matured in the blogging sphere, I begin to write not just updates, but personal reflections and realizations of my life. My thoughts, my feelings and everything that happens around my life. I also cleaned up my fonts and its sizes. I was more consistent, more mature and more linear. I had a blogging identity, it was shaped and manifested in the year 2008. Through my www.solidyfc.multiply.com blog.

Many bloggers goes through this kind of phase. I began to search for a new identity, an identity in where I could touch more people’s lives, a unique identity that I could express my whole image, an identity that I myself would enjoy writing about. Thus in searching for this new identity, and writing style, I lost the desire to blog. I underwent the stage of inactive blogging, and it lasted for two years till 2010. There were sparks of inspiration, as you could see…the obsolete http://dabsq.livejournal.com and the struggling http://dabsq.blogspot.com. Now I have made my decision to return to my usual blogging as I have found my identity, my own writing style. A new one different in its way, but similar to who I represent. A person of images, a person of realizations, reflections, musings, thoughts and randomness…


Sorry for the serious introduction, but it is indeed a must…


I welcome you to my first and new kind of blogging


My New PhotoJourney Series. I haven’t thought of a nice name yet or a logo, so yea…everyone have to start somewhere

Please watch out for the next entry for this series :) 

CHRISTMAS DAY
December 25, 2010



~dabsq

Sunday, 21 November 2010

Breaking promises, renewing old ones...

Yes I've broken my promise of blogging everyday...well I am a human being...just sue me k?

Anyway, I've broken a lot of promises recently...

  • A 7 year promise
  • Blogging everyday
  • Staying Faithful
  • Praying everyday
  • Being well disciplined in my body
  • Throwing the trash
  • Washing my clothes
Our promises range from those who are to impact the lives of many people, and ours the same...to promises that just makes you smell bad when you can't fulfill them...

But see this...I don't regret breaking the promises that I've mentioned above. I did them out of the willingness of my heart...my choice and my decision. This time no one told me what to do, no one dared to question me and criticize breaking those promises. And I don't regret any of them...

What I do regret is not being able to fulfill my promise of excelling in my studies and becoming more humble and committed to the community I know and Love. I know that people trust me, i've touched a lot of people's lives already...And my wrong decisions and choices would for certain my affect their way of seeing the world.

And so I renew a promise...the promise to once again share every experience that creates an impact in my life. This blog would be like my diary, a public diary of my reflections, realizations, stories of laughter and joy...and novels of sadness and despair. 

I would strive for holiness...I would strive for excellence...I would strive for humility...

It's who I really am...and who I want to be

The words I wanna hear someday

Kuya Dabs :)
The person who brought me to Christ
My brother, my kuya, my leader
A true Friend



~dabsq

Monday, 25 October 2010

Text Messages, Evil Black Trash Bags and Mustard Seeds

TEXT MESSAGES
So I woke up at around 4:30 AM this morning...I know right? Well its because I kinda slept early because I was EXHAUSTED from traveling around Baguio yesterday. I dozed off at 11 PM without me even noticing...that's how tired I was. Anyways, when I woke up this morning I received a very sweet and special text message from my dzidzi...Awww, I Love you too dzi ^^, honestly it made me smile and forget about being tired at the moment. After reading it a couple of times more, I saw it fit that I should throw out the trash now and not later because I might again procrastinate and end up putting it aside till next week. And I've already got 4 FULL BLACK TRASH BAGS *not counting that ones I wore during my Linis Bahay photoshoot chronicles* and one of the trashbags is like...between 10 to 15 kilograms in weight...And since I am alone in the house I have to go back and forth in throwing the trash. Walking at least a kilometer to the nearest trash depository *in layman's term...dump*

EVIL BLACK TRASH BAGS
I waited a couple more of minutes till the sun rose up, I don't want to be caught walking in the dark...I might see a ghost or something...NAHHH just kidding, I am not that afraid of something like that silly...I am just afraid that I might see flying dogs...worst nightmare...seriously the worst...Anyways I am being too random...so Yea I got up, cleaned what my dog thought was fun which was DESTROYING 2 trashbags outside so yeah I cleaned them up...and Started to carry the first two to the dump. After I disposed of the two evil trash bags I karate chopped them and then started to walk back dramatically with a background music of some 90s disco dance revolution machine. Upon reaching my house I carried in one hand the 13 kg trashbag...and the 200-300 grams trash bag on the other...I made a couple of stuffs because I was dead tired, thirsty and at the same time the trash bag was FREAKIN HEAVY! Trust me...it was HEAVY!

After with all the screaming, pulling and shouting *YOU'LL NEVER TAKE ME ALIVE* and all the drama with the 13 kg trash bag...I finally DUMPED it! AHA! At last...take that evil black trash bags! So I started walking back...no scratch that...I started dancing back...imagining that I won a battle or something...You might dismiss me as a crazy dude sometime later on, but if you really know me...then you'll just see this as one of my glorious moments...

When I got home, I washed my hands and decided that I should pray, its been a long time since I had my prayer time...And that is the purpose of this blog...to share the gospel and my reflection upon it.


Ohhh! Di Ba? Galing ko noh, kala ninyo randomness lang xD

MUSTARD SEEDS
The story that I've just shared to you is real, I didn't imagine it to make a point. I really received a sweet and special text message from my special someone that I really love, I really did throw 4 evil black trash bags that I really hate...and I really did reflect and pondered upon my prayer time...So knowing me there must be a lesson to all the things I wrote above...Right? Well yeah, all of them are related to this verse

Luke 13:18-21
He said therefore, "What is the kingdom of God like? And to what shall I compare it? It is like a grain of mustard seed which a man took and sowed in his garden; and it grew and became a tree, and the birds of the air made nests in its branches." And again he said, "To what shall I compare the kingdom of God? It is like leaven which a woman took and hid in three measures of flour, till it was all leavened."


I copy-pasted this verse from my facebook status, see I AM LAZY!...Ok enough with the randomness, kinda trying to focus with the serious portion of this blog...the realizations, reflection and lessons part...

I focused more on the mustard seed because I kinda don't know how to relate any of these with bread and yeast. The mustard seed is small, it's very small indeed but its Tree is very large. Jesus was relating to us that God's kingdom starts out of mustard seed. Does this mean literally? Well Yes and No.

Yes and No because God's kingdom is both in our hearts and in heaven. God's Kingdom in our heart indeed starts out with a simple desire, with that small spark of genuine faith, no matter how small or insignificant that spark is...as long as it is genuine, and it came from God...it has the potential to become Big and change the world. No because God's kingdom in heaven is already majestic and glorious, it didn't start out as a mustard seed.

God's Kingdom in our Hearts is like a mustard seed, it will and must start with true desire, no matter small or insignificant that desire or faith is. If planted, nurtured and protected, it would grow to something big. My service in Youth For Christ, all of the Kuya Dabs that you know now, was not the Kuya Dabs 6 years before when he started serving in the community. My intentions and goals before were not that big or as you can say genuine. I just had the simple desire to lead. I developed that simple desire that I want to help and to talk in front. It all started with a simple desire, 6 years down the road that desire transformed into something greater. I transformed into a calling to a mission that I am doing and living right now. It was not a one time event. We need to be patient, especially nurturing visions and desires. We must be patient with people around us, do not complain if it seems that nothing is happening or that you're not seeing change right away. Remember that it is a start. As long as you've planted a mustard seed of God's Love in their hearts...it would grow...just protect and nurture that seed.

The text message, how was it related into growing mustard seeds? You see Simple words as I Love you, you are important to me...and I will still Love you tomorrow are indeed life changing. For me I treasure these words deeply and it brings me great joy if someone special to me like her texts to me these words. Why? It's because all relationship starts with a small liking for each other. Like a mustard seed, a relationship whether with a GG, or a friend doesn't start with a simple YES, or I Love you...It is not a one time event...it's a continuous process that enables that relationship to grow. You cannot expect it to be that magnificent and marvelous just because you said Yes...you must work hard on it...plant it, nurture it and protect it. The words that I received are the fruits of the small mustard seed that was planted a long time ago...the small mustard seed of friendship that grew into the Tree of True Love.

How about the trash bags...How is it related to my mustard seed story? Well looking both ways, if a mustard seed is planted and nurtured it would grow to something big...something wonderful. The same way, if a mustard seed is just left alone to dry, it will wither and die *hey that rhymes* Put a couple of mustard seeds and just leave them with water without planting nor nurturing them they'll become spoiled. Like trash. Throw them out in the garbage and let them accumulate they'll grow alright, but this time as spoils, full of germs and bacteria and fungi. If we let small seeds of hate, anger, confusion and hurt get out of hand, plant them deep in our hearts, nurture them with bad memories, unfound guilt, irrational reasoning and such, then protect them by denying that they exist or even ignore them...they'll grow into something that is the opposite of the tree of Life. They'll grow thorns and continually pierce your heart because you have nurtured them and protected them. You let them to be accumulated and fill your whole body...and this is not a wise idea. Throw them out...that' my advice to you, take them to the dump. How? Go to confession, pray at church, and at the same time let go of these things that are continually hurting you...Move on, there's a lot of blessings ahead of you and with you right now...Stop wasting time collecting and protecting garbage thinking you can get rid of them later on, because they'll probably pile into enormous amounts and it would take you years before you can dispose of them all.

CONCLUSION
So there you have it folks, I shared about Text Messages, Evil Black Trash Bags and Mustard Seeds, I hope you liked my blog entry for today. For the UP students reading my blog, please do not comment about grammatical and spelling corrections in my comment box. Just email me or pm me privately, dabsq@yahoo.com. Also I tend to over exaggerate on the punctuation marks so I am begging for your forgiveness hahahaha.

It's 7:30 AM on my Clock and I leave you a picture of this evil black trash bag

God Bless :)



~dabsq

Wednesday, 20 October 2010

3rd Day

Its been 3 days since internet and electricity said bye bye to our home....Yeap and I am missing them so much, but not as much as I miss my family, my dzidzi, and my friends...

Anyways yeap its my 2nd day of hogging the computer here at global pinoy center hahahaha xD

Gotta keep my promise y'all xD

~dabsq